THE CHRONICLES OF LIFE AND DEATH

hai laki kacak

2012-02-07T22:08:00.002+08:00

I fall in love with you sebab you lah laki paling hemsem dlm dunia. sebab tula I xmau lepaskan you tau x? you kaya raya, bijak bestari, macho gentleman, charming. you pny belalai pun sedap dan tuf. I'd do anything for you la sayang!

alaa you left me anyway. i xpuas lg nk romen ngn you.. i stim gila bila you peluk i taw. nape you tinggalkan i? i kantoikan nk? i gtau org sana kisah sebenar. ha i pegang bomb you neh. kalau i baling kt kampung you, mmg padanla muka you. mau?

kalau ngkorang caye ayat2 diatas ni keluar dr mulut aku, you know nothing bout me.

but the truth is, I'm holding that weapon. rasa mcm hebat giteww.

you owe me something, asshole. you hurt my feelings and you don't care? fine. I'm gonna shoot you right on your dick anytime I want. keep on lying to them if that makes you feel better. but don't underestimate me, you filthy liar.

pagi yg hujan

2012-01-31T08:56:00.002+08:00

yep today I woke up early and it was raining. and it is still raining. best best.

so my new year started with some awesome and awful events. the night before new year was alright yet the days after that was a total bummed. I am still bumming right now (bumming, betul ke?). is trying to amuse myself in so many ways.

you know I used to watch sports a lot, which I think they're my drugs and my medicines. so I started to stick back to my old-loyal-friendly boyfriends, ESPN and ASSP. urgh jadah apa bau cm cb je lori sampah neh.

I wish not to talk bout how disappointed I am in this blog since my twitter TL is full of my emotions and touchy mouchy feelings. you might annoyed with those shits I tweeted. damn I am so sorry but I just don't give a fuck. kehkeh.

talking bout fuck, did you people really know what does that word mean? when to use it? how to use it? well you better open up your eyes and mind because it doesn't only mean put a guy's cock in a girl's vagina mmkay. screw you if you said so, butthead.

guess what, I'm done blue printing my future bedroom. gahh it was great and I am satisfied! next kena plan mana nak cari fulus2 itu, then proceed to living room.

disamping itu, aku rasa seperti semakin tua. mmg makin tua pun. asek nak pegi vacay je. so I was thinking of going to Perak. ada gua! pastu nk pergi obersi plak. last time ada hati la gak nak try tengok Sabah Sarawak tp skg cm takde hati je. heh bukan takde. nanti la.. bila ada jemputan kawen dr Kabong, I'll be there la. kot.

gua nk pergi obersi sambil dgr lagu Coldplay, Adele dan Christina Perri. tu tandanya.. ha jawab ler. gua sendiri jijik dgn jawapan itu.

did you know there's few disadvantage if you wake up early and got nothing to do? I have five dude. firstly of course you just wasting your time with doing nothing. secondly you started to get hungry and you eat. later on you'll get fat because you know la, breakfast kt Malaysia ni lemak2 belaka. right? thirdly, you'll waste money sebab kena beli sarapan tuh. fourthly, pagi ni la org pegi kerja, cuaca pn sejuk2 lagi. rugi bangun awal. takde org pn nk ajak lepak. so you might end up with termenung and social network yg buang masa neh. last but not least, membazir amalan syaitan. fikir2kan lah.

so that's it. nak sambung tidur. selamat beramal.

p/s: I can't get over you till today. my mistake and it was a bad decision. I wish I could turn back time so that those mistakes won't happen or, I wish we haven't met.

Rock The World 11

2011-12-11T14:39:00.008+08:00

gua disini tak mungkin akan menceritakan keseluruhan event yg berlaku semalam. sebab ia terlalu osom. anyway the night event was a lil bit different. kehkeh

night event adalah event yg dinanti-nantikan dimana band2 yg gua layan abad ni akan perfom. band2 abad ni maksud gua err.. keras la sket. tak sekeras minuman keras. The Padangs and Massacre Conspiracy aka mc16. oh tak lupa Bittersweet yg lama tak lawat. so gua agak teruja nk tunggu pukul 8 malam. well Bittersweet masih seperti dulu cuma Pijan kelihatan spt hampir mahu menukar identiti. just saying LOL.

Hxc band dimulakan dgn Daarchlea. gua tak berapa nak fasih ini band tp balak gua agak BFF ngn dorg so yeah, gua layan gak. boleh dikira front row gak kami bertandang tp disebabkan ketinggian gua ditindas, rasa seperti dok belakang sekali. puii. depan gua kelihatannya seperti kanak2 lepasan SPM yg mahu mencuba aksi2 hxc. bukan main gembira dapat berdiri depan aku kn. gua tahu dorg nk ajak gua join ke-kanak-kanak-kan mereka sbb faktor awet muda gua. tp maaflah, gua pn seremm2 gak dok situ. gua nk berlindung bawah ketiak balak gua yg ber-singlet aje. kalau engkorang tak tahu Daarchlea band ni, do check it out lagu2 dorg yg what-the-eff-tak-reti-eja-ka di youtube. dasat bai.. dasat.. setat2 je dah mcm event perang dunia ke-1. gua biasa dah ngn head-bangers2 tegar so gua takde hal makan rambut org, terhantuk kepala sana sini. tp event ni, gua mmg gelak sakan tgk bdk2 lepasan SPM tersebut.

minah depan dorg head-bang bagai nk cabut kepala. pastu muka dorg semua mcm baru lepas kena rogol ngn minah tu. tak sampai 5 min lagu main dorg blah. kenyang makan rambut lettew. serius gua tak boleh fokus dgn performance Daarchlea. bdk2 sekolah itu adorable!! tp ada tinggal lg 2 org yg still nk try dok crowd tu. so gua perati je dr belakang. ye belakang. nak wat camne...

Daarchlea

next band was The Padangs. band antara band wajib kitorg mesti tonton. nape? sebab lagu dorg entitled Party Till You're Dead. kami suka sebut YEAH! ramai2. so again.. do check this band out. aku rasa bdk2 sekolah ni bdk Kajang. serta merta dorg dtg amek port dorg semula. haiya. pastu asek dok jerit 'Jo! Jo!' Jo is the frontman of the band. o man so gay bila laki panggil Jo. sbb Jo bermuka suci. oh noezz~ biau jele.

Jo Jambu

GUA MMG TAK BOLEH TERIMA LAGU BABY JUSTIN BIEBER TAK KESAH LAH VERSI APE. unfortunately The Padangs opened dgn Baby versi dorg. muka gua stim sehingga tamat lagu tersebut. sekian.

The Padangs

gua yakin dorg sapot The Padangs gila2 sbb 1 - dorg bdk Kajang. 2 - Dorg pernah jumpa Jo kt 1 tempat bernama 'Saujana'. gua dgr ape dorg gosip beb. xtipu pny. Saujana mana, gua tak tau. jgn tertipu dgn muka jambu Jo. suara mcm Slipknot. lagu kerassss. so crowd mula mengganas: dive sana sini, head-bang keliling pinggang, tak lupa mosh pit yg pelbagai bentuk. eventho aku rendah dah berlindung di bawah naungan ketiak org, gua jd mangsa junaman. mestilah sakit. sobsob.. bdk2 sekolah neh pulak.. sebok nk berlindung bawah naungan gua. ape? dorg takut juge

ghopenyer. they were like 'lari.. lari.. org moshing. tunduk!! org diving..' tenang adik2 sekalian. ada PBSM yg akan membantu kalau engkorang sakit. once again gua dpt lihat muka dorg kenyang mkn rambut.

last band was mc16. malas gua nk cerita panjang psl band ni. best bebeno. ktorg dah beli EP dorg. heeeee~~~ tp ktorg dok belakang. sebab tak tahan bau paeng. gua takde hal. ktorg dah BFF ngn mc16. so dis time gua moshing sorg kt belakang. balak gua sopan, tak suka lompat2 neh. tp dia head-bangers tegar. anyway formasi di pit sgt cantik. gua like like like. gua suggest engkorang lihat sendiri.

Massacre Conspiracy yg femes dgn lagu BLOODLESS!!

so overall night event was the best among the best. yet takleh kalah event kt gig.

fun fact: jgn terpedaya dgn muka2 jambu vokalis Daarchlea, The Padangs dan mc16. suara mereka mcm org pecah rumah.

bosan lagi

2011-11-07T12:52:00.009+08:00

Pick your top 5 shows and then answer the following questions!

1 - How I Met Your Mother

2 - Supernatural

3 - Pretty Little Liars

4 - Prison Break

5 - Chuck

Who is your favorite character in 2?

Dean Winchester. funny, tough, caring and macho

Who is your least favorite character in 1?:

Marshall Eriksen. he's big and less funny.

What is your favorite season of 5?:

Season 1 where Chuck not yet a spy, noob bastard and adorable.

What’s your favorite relationship in 3?:

Caleb and Hanna. sweet mother of nature

Who is your anti-relationship in 2?:

Sam and Ruby the Devil. this Ruby not the first Ruby.

How long have you watched 1?:

a year i guess. i was kind of late starting watching this series. my brother taught me to watch.

How did you become interested in 3?:

started watching this series since first time it was showed on ntv7 without intention. fell in love automatically.

Who is your favorite actor in 4?:

definitely Theodore 'T-Bag' Bagwell

Which show do you prefer 1, 2, or 5?:

1, it makes me feel happy all day especially watching Barney

Which show have you seen more episodes of 1 or 3?:

1 of course. 3 just started and it was kinda heavy series. i got tensed sometimes

If you could be anyone from 4, who would you be?:

T-Bag, no hesitate

Would a 3/4 crossover work?:

well both 3 and 4 are heavy series. Alison's murderer is trying to escape from prison by the help from Michael

Pair two characters in 5 that would make an unlikely, but strangely okay couple:

Morgan and John

Over all, which show has a better cast, 3 or 5?:

3. they are pretty and attractive. who doesn't like seeing pretty people is a liar.

Which has better theme music, 1 or 5?:

5. they got old American rock songs. feel like I am an American living in a cowboy town.

award yg ketinggalan

2011-11-07T12:34:00.002+08:00

since nama aku ada dlm tikusmando.blogspot, so i made mine. it was an old post but i just read it. hah buat jelah. bosan suda.

1. Copy Award Diatas Untuk Diletakkan Di Blog Anda.

2- Nyatakan 5 Fakta Menarik Tentang Si Pemberi Award Ini.
-z tak boleh buka mata lebih dari 3inch
-z suka membahan org, xkesah la sesiapa pn
-z mempunyai suara yg sgt merdu. dia ada band.
-z pandai menulis blog. kalau aku baca, xsah xgelak.
-z ada mak yg peramah

3. Setiap Blogger Mestilah Menyatakan 10 Fakta Atau Hobi Diri Sendiri Sebelum Memilih
-rendah
-suka gelak ketawa (copy z)
-loyar buruk
-berubah (org cakap)
-kurang suka pemandu perlahan
-pemalas
-teringin nk jumpa Avenged Sevenfold sebelum mati
-kuat maki
-xde bakat
-main redah je

.4-Anda Perlu Memilih 10 Penerima Award Seterusnya Dan Describe Tentang Mereka

-z -- BM budak ni mmg power. blog terbaik sepanjang abad
-jeb -- bassist MAde Faker yg berjiwa seni
-suraya -- memiliki cerita yg pelbagai
-uteh -- pandai reka cerpen Inggeris
-bell -- wanita yg gagah dan kental
-wan -- makin dewasa, makin matang. lg matang dr kakaknya
-qila -- pandai memasak masakan moden. resepi via blog. naisss
-jin from hitz.fm -- banyak jumpa artis2 terkemuka
tak cukup 10 la pulak. dah xde sesiapa dlm list lg. that's it.

feeling this

2011-10-17T20:09:00.004+08:00

it is Blink 182 song but i ain't talking bout it. it was a good punk rock by the way. do check it out!

feels like writing a poem while i was in shower. pretty odd right.

just giving a shot. get ready for action.

this is one helluva feeling inside me

it is really shit

maybe shouldn't feel that way

this feeling

sucks so bad

but trust me everybody experienced this

even you

if not

then you are the very special human on earth

i know i can count on you

i trust on you

i believe in you

even you said i did not trust you

if you know me

you know i said the truth

shits happened

i am okay with that

and i am prepared for that even it kicks my ass

one day i am gonna kick that back

i found this feeling

that i never found that before

i mean i found the exact word for this feeling

for what happened last time

maybe i did not admit it

cause i was too ego for that

but i am loser

i am weak, dammit

i am so not cool

just a humble opinion

that this feeling

shows how much i care

how much i.. love..

i don't know

i'm just saying

if you hate this feeling

don't be a human

no offense

even i got this feeling towards my dad

this feeling

need to be coped (i dunno if this makes any sense hehe)

if you overreact with it

then people can say you did not trust them

but i think

it is okay to have this feeling

at least a bit

come on, we're human

i am human

honey

everything happens for a reason

i accept who you are, what you did

i love the way you are (ececeh!)

just don't lose it

i can control this feeling

if you can help me deal with it

if you think i shouldn't feeling like this

please do correct me

you don't have to tell me truth if you don't want to

i am just missing the old you
but the new you is way damn cooler

this feeling

is jealousy

i talk shits.

rock me away

2011-10-16T10:33:00.010+08:00

so last Saturday I went to Rockaway Festival 2011 with Hasremi. you know this guy? Noh Hujan knew him, more or less LOL. i couldn't help myself when Noh called this dude and took a picture of him. i was like dammitthisisnotfair. to all rockers who came early last time, you know this guy.

firstly i saw Hujan and i said mantap gile! then i saw all the local bands, they are.... pretty awesome! true story. to be honest la... i admire Kyoto Protocol, Lo, Love Me Butch, Pop Shuvit, Massacre Conspiracy and last but not least the one and only One Buck Short. nothing more i can say, Malaysian got talent babyy!

Hujan mantap gile

these are few pics I captured from my cellphone. too busy rock and rolling to click the camera. plus, gua memang dikenali dgn org yg tak reti ambil gambar. hihu.

Story Of The Year

Kyoto Protocol. ada stail lah!

Jin and Ryan from Hitz.fm with Lo

yes it was raining in the middle of the concert. but we wait like a rock star for the show to re-start. besides, as far as i'm concerned, there's no dry-concert exists. we'll always get wet! and that is oh-someeeee

after the rain stops, we continue to rock and roll with wet feet. i am kinda short girl. not too short but short jugak lah.. so bila dok tengah2, it is friggin hard to see the band on the stage. pastu crowd tak macam hurricane plak. aku rasa tertindas! haha. it was fun tho. Hasremi saved my life. lesson to short people: at least bring a guy to a concert. aku boleh rasa kesesakannya hingga hari ni. fuiii bak kata member: ni macam dah praktis pergi haji neh. insyaAllah... hehe.

uii gua mmg tak boleh blah ngn kanak2 yg berada disekeliling gua. mcm kena renjatan letrik. gua tak marah. gua cerita je. rambut kirai sana sini, masuk mata, mulut, hidung gua. sedap baii mkn rambut lu. but that's what we call rock concert. nak stand still, pergi hospital.

sampai 7pm aku tersepit di pit itu. gap between Story Of The Year and All Time Low took bout 30mins. damn i couldn't hold that sesak anymore. rasa nk sawan je kt situ yob. last2 kami keluar gak. sedih karena meninggalkan port yg agak best itu. apakan daya....

so i watched All Time Low from the car park. nice view.

ATL abes, kami bergegas pergi depan stage semula. kehkeh. no offense. tengok dari jauh pun cool jugak. lagi clear. cuma kurang heat la.. aku melompat2 pn seorang diri. idgaf.

kami nantikan MC16, favourite band Hasremi. aku nk tengok aksi Abg Ash je. macam org kuat gitu. gagah. admire doh. tp aku tak faham jadah apa dia sebut. to all Malaysian, gua promote MC16. true rockstar!

saat dinantikan ialah The Used. oemji wanna see sexy Bert and Jepha. but it seems like the camera hates Jepha. i wonder la.. boleh kira tak sampai 5x camera zoom kt Jepha. poor kiddo. but i still can see you from far. sweet.

The Used. Bert on the screen.

i really can't write right now cause there's so many awesome things happened. call me if you wanna know more. TEEHEE

motivation

2011-09-24T19:34:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I listened to a story from this helluva guy who rocks my world so much. it was a valuable moment that makes me think like thousand times.

He told me how he survived when he first came here. well it might sounds like he's a foreigner but he's not. but I was amazed. how did he do that by himself? shit I never live like he lived. I should learn a lesson some time.

It was a long conversation. I would rather not to tell in details but in conclusion I am way too weak compare to others. I thought my life was hard but actually others were harder. be grateful and challenge your butt off doing something that you scared. man I am such a chicken.

I would love to listen your story everyday. even your craps.

another weird me

2011-08-21T00:15:00.002+08:00

I love to stay at night, stay in the yard, watching the skies and remembering those childhood memories of mine. It was sucks, the memories. but sweet.

My old room which one of the most haunted room I have ever been. I remember where I saw many ghosts from my window, from my bed. geez. Then there's an old radio situated near the window that I switched it on every night listen to old craps like Lenny Kravitz, The Calling, ABBA... such a legendary stuff I owned.

Favourite moment during staying at that home was every weekend my family and I are going to KL where my dad used to work. damn I love the highways, the silence and chill in the car, the stars, the songs on dad's radio, and I never sleep all the way to KL. I was so jakun that time. KL was like a heaven for me. I was so in love wit the highways. The Way by Fastball was the most suitable song for the night. man I am a weirdo.

Another home we lived, was a nightmare for me. It was garbage. I hate the place, the people. They were rude, friggin rude. Me and my brothers prefer to stay inside the house, play together and watching tv. Dad was still in KL, sometimes mom works at night. so it was just us at home. We slept and scared together. Before goin to bed, bro's gonna cook something like fries, Maggi and Milo ais. sheettt I miss that moment. I turned on the radio so that we didn't hear anything in our sleep.

Living in Johore was full of ghost stories. It ruined my childhood times. Then we moved to Shah Alam.

The new home was the greatest home in my life. I have never felt so brave since I was born. It was damn peace. the place was situated on the hill so yeah it was cool! seeing people from my bedroom window, walking around in the house more than 3 times was like a routine for me. I sleep late just because to feel the night. I used to love Mr. night so much.

And now, I'm in another room. It was boring cause I couldn't see anything from the window beside my neighbours' room.

Everywhere I go, there's one thing remains the same: radio. Music makes my day. but I do miss the old school music. It brings the kiddo memories.

Stupid post.

a creep

2011-08-18T16:31:00.003+08:00

it has been a while. HAPPY RAMADHAN to all. kinda sick right now, not with Bieber fever. that was only a lame joke. I just don't feel so good.

so have you guys bought anything for Raya? I probably not buying any clothes this time. but suddenly I got a shawl, nice perfect one. dankeschon liebe.

just in case you didn't know there'll be Rockaway Fest 2011 will be held in 2 months if I'm not mistaken. (gosh it's Ramadan babe. still thinking bout jimba2. sigh) anyway.. I got the early bird tickets! yes tickets, going with the boyfriend.

I've been grown up. this is weird y'know, acting like a lady. but those things that got in me right now, are totally confusing. since nothing else to do at home, the thoughts in my mind speak a lot and loud. dangg what the fish am I talking bout. GET A LIFE douche.

I just missing you so much when you're not around.

brunch with the rockstar

2011-07-25T13:41:00.015+08:00

did you know what is brunch? it is a combination of breakfast and lunch which produced the word BRUNCH. i bet we do that a lot. lagi2 org bujang yg saving dan kurang tenaga utk bermasak. it's a simple life y'know. well i would like to have a brunch at a restaurant, sgt mudah terpengaruh ngn tv. kali ni aku nk brunch mcm kt sitcom How I Met Your Mother. American stail gitu.. tp makanannya aku tak sure. adakah makanan brunch ngn breakfast, lunch dan dinner lain. you tell me cause i friggin dunno.

i did it yesterday with dear boyfriend, without intention. plan asal mahu membeli speaker yg BOOM milik rockstar. kami ke Tesco dgn tak mandi. yes kami tak mandi. baru 10am. malas nk mandi, redahkn aje. Tesco je pun. aku pun tak pasti nape aku yakin berlegar2 di public sebegitu. ada la sedikit resah di badan tp boleh control. we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang. About nobody-e-e-e LOIKE!

dah dapat speaker putih suci, rockstar tanya pasal makan. masing2 takde watch. kami pn tak tahu masa tu pagi lg ke, dah tengahari. so i guess it's gonna be brunch! wah gumbira2 tp dlm hati. luar hati, aku tunjukkn sifat malu dan segan mahu makan time ni. rockstar garang, so aku perah otak gak la nak brunch kt mana. aku terbayang dlm HIMYM. hmm wujud ke kedai cmtu.

at last we went to Paddington House Of Pancakes at e@Curve. huii aku teringin bebenor nk makan kt sini. ngn Nysa Hassan dan Mirae Nabe. tp ushar2, haktui tak mampu la untuk kami, kot. but this time, tercapai hasratku itu. brunch plak tu! (senyum lebar). lalu 2x sebab malu nk masuk. tempat mcm kt Wonderland plak en. kami ni kurang wangi. ahh masuk je. rockstar ada. tp rockstar pn malu sebenarnya. aku baca kt entrance PHOP ni ada tulis bruch set. so yeah tempat ni ada sediakan brunch. wee!

fuhh yakin sungguh bila berada dalam restoran tu. tenang, rasa badan ni mcm dah mandi. tengok menu. 1 haram pn aku tak tahu jenis2 makanan yg ada. rockstar suruh aku order je pape. harga? not bad.. not too cheap and not too expensive. bg aku mahal, bg rockstar murah. aku pilih 1 original American pancake (pancake kosong with honey syrup, strawberry jam and peanut butter), nachos with 3 different dips and omelette jadah. rockstar cakap 'air pun awk pilihkn' so yeah.. aku tunjuk kt waiter gambar air jus mangga bercili di gelas and hot choco for me.

agak formal disitu. kami kurang berkata-kata. ayat pun sopan. tp gelak, aku still no1.

makanan tiba one by one. pancake dulu. rockstar tak pernah rasa. bg dia try. nk makan American stail, skali cucuk 3 lapis. sebelum masuk mulut, betabor atas meja. kami Malaysian. anyway, for me it tastes good, tak muak, lg tiptop bila letak jam. tp rockstar prefer with syrup only. next, air. hot choco sgt menyelerakan perut aku. but then i complained to the waiter bout the other drink 'excuse me, i thought there should be a chili on the glass' and he said 'sorry no chili but still hot' okayy cemas! cemas! rockstar minum. muka: mcm kucing kena TB. aku try. watcha!! mula2 rasa manis jus, pedas sket. tp bila dah last.. fuii pedas bak cili api. pelik semacam. haa nk sgt sy pilih. awk kn gagah. jgn marah bangg~

nachos pun tiba. ni faveret rockstar. nachos actually lebih kurang mcm jajan cachos. tp better, lebih pure, ada grating cheese and pepperoni atasnya. dalam ketiga2 dips, 1 je memikat hati. think it's some kind of cheese sauce we not sure. 1 dip yg lain, mcm ice cream and another one aku rasa mcm bawang blender.

last dish was omelette jadah. sorry aku tak hafal namanya. rupanya kelihatan mcm pizza. tp bukan tepung tapi telur. nama pn omelette. topping ada roasted chicken with mushrooms. sauce pn more or less mcm pizza. sedap, serious. rockastar tak suka sgt la tapinya. besar siot bendealah ni. kenyang. last2 semua tak habis except my hot choco. total price rm5o lebih sket. so.. mungkin tak mahal sgt kalau nk makan sekali sekala.

semua ni berlaku tanpa mandi. jadi yakinlah dgn diri anda sendiri.

takde gambar makanan taken by me but i'm telling you it tastes goooooooooooood

thank you Hasremi! I LOVE YOU TO MANY MORE MY HONEY. CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT YOU. You are my only one. I love you twice and thrice. You jump i jump. You pump i pin. You shine my day. You bring me light. You are my tomorrow. You'll never walk alone. Me and You like Pinang cut into two. We are meant to be together. (True Onarist, 2011)

lemau tp bersemangat

2011-07-12T14:49:00.004+08:00

ye aku sgt lemau sebab kembali menanam anggur. fuhh lemau. bersemangat dengar Asking Alexandria. fiwit.

since got nothing else to do.. i inspired this so-called a poem (xrasa mcm poem pn. it's just a saying i guess)

you're quiet

you're emotionless

you're senseless

you're the most don't-give-a-fuck person I've met

you have full of craziness in your head

you hide your feelings cause you don't wanna ruin the scene

you do what you think you should, and that make sense

you don't give a rat's ass on how people feel

cause that's what you are

in other word, you're cold

but i know you care

it's friggin okay

i just keep it to myself

bet you have no i idea how joy, secure and warm i am when i'm with you

aku sgt slebet bukan?

ok nk baca buku cerita ayah yg bg semalam. oh just checked, it's actually a birthday present! of course i'm gonna like this, Ayah. fun fun fun

xoxo

hahahahahahaha

2011-07-12T00:16:00.004+08:00

pulang rumah dr tempat kerja, terus xboleh berhenti gelak. even when my parents were talking to me. pening.

so it was my first day kerja kt supermarket. sumpah aku cemas xmenentu nak masuk kerja tu. lain sket la dr kerja2 sebelum ni.

'awk jgn tkot ngn org..' -- ni jela ayat yg aku pegang sepanjang nk masuk kerja

1:50pm - jumpa mak gad, tanya pasal punch card. xpenah aku tumbuh kad. noob. kena ayat sarkastik dr beliau. aku gelak je beb. double noob.

1:57pm - punch kad berbentuk sain dr supervisor sbb mesin kad tu rosak.

2:00pm - orentasi dr pekerja yg berpengalaman

2:15pm - adik fasi bwk aku pegi ke gad, beritahu prosedur and dress up yg betul ke tempat kerja.

2:30pm - stat terpacak kt kaunter. tunggu customer. tawaf Voir more than 20 times sampai pukul 5

5:15pm - kua rehat. tny supervisor: boleh x sy xnk kua rehat. (bajet pekerja cemerlang nk buat overtime padahal xd geng nk lepak, xtau nk buat apa waktu rehat). jawapannya xboleh

5.50pm - masuk kerja semula. adik fasi mahu pulang. rupanya, supervisor mahu pulang gak. means, aku sorang kerja dr pukul 6pm-1030pm. DANGG!! hui jiwa kacau.

6:00pm - bermula sesi Syuhada menguasai Voir Jeans di Jusco Bukit Raja. sumpah bosan mcm kambeng sembelit. jumpa member, aunty cina umur 40 tahun. haiya aunty. lu cakap 1 ayat pn dekat sipuluh minit balu abes. wa penat tunggu. aku layankn jela. hormat dan kebosanan. to be honest, seketul customer pn aku xdpt hari ni. sad and pathetic. ada je yg lalu lalang, ushar2 corner ni tp sekadar kirai baju, tanya mcm ingin tahu tp sebenarnya xmahu beli. tp bila ada customer datang, rasa mcm rezeki melimpah ruah turun. melayan org, lipat baju. suka! xbosan langsung. boleh kira customer yg aku layan xsampai 10 org

1015pm - aunty 40tahun ajak balik. amboi xsabar bukan kepalang.

10:50pm - tiba rumah

ni la serba sedikit hari bekerja di Voir butik dlm Jusco.

kisah mak gad caci aku, hah jangan cakap la. terhina gak rasanya. tp apakan daya. mulut org... gelakkan saja.

supervisor aku aunty cina, kuat bekerja dan tegas. malangnya beliau sgt busy hari ni. aku xdapat mengenali beliau lebih mendalam.

adik fasi aku seorg lelaki lembut. mengapa semua kawan laki kt tempat kerja aku mesti seorg lelaki lembut? mengapa?!!! tensen la sket. you know how much i not-very-like soft guy (it was on my previous post). xpela.. janji sudi ajar aku buat kerja pn dah cukup. lemah la kawan ngn laki lembut, seriously.

since ngah xde sale, butik ni xde org nk datang. aku penat sbb kebosanan. sangat xberbaloi. baik aku pikul kayu balak dlm hutan hujan khatulistiwa.

so aku rasa nk benti kerja esok. mak aku suggest bisnes kuih raya. haaa so siapa2 teringin nk try biskut raya made by Syuhada, silalah roger ya!

p/s: post yg membosankan

brave words

2011-07-06T13:36:00.005+08:00

sebab sangat teruja untuk menaip, aku post lg 1 karangan untuk tatapan pembaca sekalian (walaupun tak seberapa)

first and foremost, aku masuk kerja esok InsyaAllah di kedai jagung. ahh jagung pn boleh. asalkan kerja halal. mai la ke kedai jagung aku di PKNS Shah Alam (padahal belum masuk kerja lagi). cemas ni.

fuhh rasa galak sungguh tangan ini menaip sambil melayan Need You by Travie McCoy. catchy gitu.

saya ada idola baru! bukan idola kecil. idola besar punyaaaa!! beliau bukan mengganti tempat sesiapa tapi menambah people who I inspired most. fiwit. nama: rahsia.

'awk ubh la cara awk fkr tu.. jgn tkot ngn org.. tkot la ngn bos awk, Tuhan..'

sentap gak la bila dapat ayat ni. aku terus xtakut da sama itu Datin yg mcm hebat. tapi segan. beliau cakap ala high-class. aku plak cakap mcm budak tak cukup umur

'tkot ape ngn datin? taik dye bau gak.. mcm taik awk' -- EPIC!

there's a few sentence yg agak sensitif kot kalau di-post. but he got the guts to confess and that inspires me a lot. he's willing to change and that is so fuckin good! my goodness i swear cause i'm too impressed. didn't mean to brag but we should spread the good things, right.

i should've an tumblr account.

one more thing i found out. when he got sick he become such a positive guy in a rock-star way.

ily!

terima kasih ex-guru!

2011-07-06T11:36:00.004+08:00

Pulau Pandan jauh ke tengah

Gunung Daik bercabang tiga

Hancur badan dikandung tanah

Budi yang baik dikenang juga

Ex-guru, masa SPM kan... BM saya dapat C5. saya pn tak tahu kenapa lemau sangat Bahasa saya. padahal saya berbual dalam BM dimana sahaja, bila-bila masa. saya rasa saya kena praktiskan penggunaan BM dengan cara yang betul dan lebih berhemah. wah macam berat je. akan tetapi, ranggi juga kan bahasa klasik Melayu. kalau lah Hang Tuah hidup lagi, tentu saya akan berguru dengan beliau.

Ex-guru, saya minta maaf, saya janji tidak mengulangi kesilapan itu. saya hendak pergi ke lapangan terbang boleh? haha

Kalau ada sumur di ladang

Bolehlah saya menumpang mandi

Kalau ada umur yang panjang

Bolehlah kita berjumpa lagi

how to

2011-07-05T17:32:00.004+08:00

this new life of mine, i arranged some new strategies. it might sound a bit cocky annoying, lame etc. if you don't like it, just leave it okay! oh i'm not gonna tell the strategies anyway. it's mine. BOOHOO!

hey i'm wondering, how to treat a guy in a proper way. a boyfriend to be exact. serious shit i wonder how. cause i am such a dumb-ass in this whole relationship thingy. i really wanna work things out, do the right thing and hmm what else?? be a better person la senang kata. people said, we got more mature when we have responsibility to others. i dunno. we'll see bout that.

this guy i met, he's awesome. like really awesome. i accept him just the way he is. i just wanna know what should i do to make him feels comfy, easy, on the other word, special. i did try my best to make things right dude, i really am. but can i suggest one thing? can guys just say what they actually want from a girl cause i totally cannot read minds like Edward Cullen.

or maybe it's just me who such a stupid moron who cannot understand people. i just wanna make you happy (if you're reading this)

love is blind. so yeah i'm fucking blind right now. you gotta help me, if you want to.

i am lack of English words.

you had my heart inside in your hand

2011-06-28T14:57:00.002+08:00

good voice, good energy, good spirit, good music and good lyrics.

Adele - Rolling In The Deep.

melancong di KL

2011-06-26T18:53:00.006+08:00

nada berita: semalam 25/6/2011 kerajaan telah mengadakn Younity Street Festival untuk anak2 muda di negara ini. terdapat pelbagai aktiviti menarik spt pertandingan skateboarding, street dance, pancaragam, melukis graffiti, jualan2 ranggi, battle of Guitar Hero dan persembahan dr artis tempatan spt Pesawat, Deja Voodoo Spells dan lain2. majlis telah dirasmikan oleh Menteri Belia dan Sukan Dato' Sri Ahmad Shabery Cheek.

i was there and it was a good event. kinda impressive to see many youth with different background, styles, cultures and interests. of course la

i went there with this helluva masculine youth who might one day become a legend. fuh!! konon. lebih baik aku yg puji daripada dia puji sendiri. cik adik jgn marah. abg gurau jek. but seriously we as the youth of the nation rajin2 lah join event macam ini. :)

niat dihati nk pegi gig kt one cafe, Jln TAR. aku ni da la noob. konon2 si bdk legend ni tahu la jalan. dari pukul 5-7 still tak jumpa jadah ni. haiya. siapa tahu mana nk cari one cafe? hah xpayah. aku dah tau. aku ingat Jln TAR ni org jual kain je.

rupanya ada 'kedai mamak' dimana budak2 yg mcm scary, fierce dan macho berkumpul. heyy nasib baik im not in pink that time. malu doh. semua berbaju hitam, rambut pjg mengurai, celak tebal 5inch, muka ketat mcm tahan sembelit. aku ni muka mcm puppet Sesame Street je.

i prefer ngadap mamat jambu neh rather than org2 sebegitu. tetapi setelah diugut dan minum teh utk ketenangan, aku lebih senang cuci mata drpd ngadap mamat jambu tersebut. mwahaha just kidding. fyi, ia mmg macam kedai mamak, y'know tempat makan lepak2. tp kt tepi tu ada pusat gig tp bg aku la, gig utk metal je kot. seram2 gitu.

kpd sesiapa yg xpenah ke cafe tersebut, silalah kesana utk mengambil aura stail like a rokstar. ya mmg aku rasa sgt rokstar masa itu. utk mencari kedudukan sebenar cafe tersebut, gunakan google map dari awal pencarian. bukan dah 2 jam berjalan.. baru nk guna gadget canggih itu ye. Jln TAR sgt panjang rupanya. jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan.

Eyes Set To Kill dijadualkan akan mengadakn gig di One Cafe pd 10 July 2011. jgn ketinggalan!

melancong di KL, berlaku berikutan perjalanan yg jauh meraban tp sebenarnya tempat tu sekangkang kera je. kami Malaysian tp kami belum mahir jadi kami pelancong. banyak benda aku tgk, aku jumpa. dah round 2x kt tempat yg sama pn rasa mcm masih baru di situ. i do have lots of fun, lots of calories burned. and i feel great. MU-HA. partyin partyin yeahhh!! - Rebecca Black

woot aku excited neh. A.K.U. D.A.H B.O.L.E.H M.A.I.N S.K.E.T I.N.T.R.O B.U.R.I.E.D A.L.I.V.E Y.A.N.G B.E.S.T I.T.U heyy leceh btol tulis benda ni. excited beb! tp slow a. dulik ape. yg penting aku tahu main. you guys should try it too. aku sedang jakun. tenkiu rokstar sbb gigih ajar saya! nk sainnn lg.

p/s: aku xpaham nape font aku berubah2. post jela yek

Ultras Malaya

2011-06-23T15:07:00.009+08:00

bro2 ni cool gila. abaikn ketiak. dorg rocks!!!

mlm ni kepada sesiapa yg xtahu, ada match between Malaysia and Lebanon kt Stadium Bukit Jalil. gempak weh! sapa2 yg ada duit, silalah pegi. RM 20 je kot. simpati lah kt aku yg miskin ini kerana xdpt join budak Ultras. grrrr... pegi sapot Malaysia.

kpd yg jarang tonton bola sepak Malaysia ni, meh aku cite pengalaman aku join Ultras. oh btw Ultras ni kelab penyokong bola sepak Malaysia. Melayu pny stail. cantek.

adk aku seorg Ultras sejak beberapa tahun dahulu dimana Ultras ni xfamous langsung katanya. dia ckp, masa tu berapa kerat je Ultras ni. adk aku siap dpt pengiktirafan dr

player Malaysia zaman tu sbb buatkn bendera Harimau Malaya. betapa xramainya bdk Ultras sampai kejap je nama adk aku femes. nk sainn, adikku...

pastu adk aku ajak2 ayam suruh aku join dorg. aku mcm lemau time tu, asyik layan EPL je. ok la aku join, tp tgk tv jak. honestly aku xd feel kt pasukan Malaysia. maaf, aku dah tarik balik kata2ku ini

one day i follow him to National Stadium, join bdk Ultras yg agak dah berkembang sket. ha disanalah aku lihat betapa sepakatnya rakyat Malaysia menyokong negara sendiri. sumpah aku sgt teruja, terharu, dan bersemangat. xpenah2 aku joget kt stadium, but this time i did it. pasukan sorak watpe??.. kami joget nyanyi jimba2 bg sokongan. main mercun bagai. seronok weh! semua org keliling jd sahabat masa tu, bersatu menyokong Malaysia dlm susah dan senang. fuhh patriotik bukan aku ni? see the leg la. i am Malaysian. proud to be Malaysian.

lepas dr tu, aku join Ultras ke stadium of kos with my brother. bergaya kot. Malaysia kalah pn, kami kelihatan kuat. kerana kami Harimau!

i love Malaysia. HMC changes my life. thank you.

summertime

2011-06-22T13:05:00.002+08:00

now playing: My Chemical Romance

someone asked me to update my blog so gahh here i am. with some stupid ideas of writing.

just ended my short course and it was 50 awful/ 50 awesome.

awful - i didn't get the chance to work and find my own money. dammit i need money.

awesome - lots of interesting events i had during these days. i am so in love.

MTV World Stage will be held this July and i was checking if there's any awesome line up for this year. unfortunately it becomes worst. hah you guys should check out for yourself coz it's really nothing but a lame line up. exception for the local act.

these new friends i made, they kinda 'change' me. i have never listen to HUJAN band but yes they made me listen to them. hey world, i pronounce here that HUJAN was ftw! true story. ok nk download lagu dorg lak nanti. hehehh.

actually i'm on a mission cari pen-skodeng gersang yg lahanat mcm cibai tuh. best sgt ye nk tgk org bogel. internet kn ada.. lagi cantik. watpa la hang tgk aku yg berlapis2 neh. bullshit pny org. siap kamera bai! nk upload lettew. xpn nk tatap video aku tiap hari. ko tgk la mak, kakak, adik pompuan ko pny. xyah susah2 pegi tingkap aku, tunggu aku siap mandi. mcm jahanam. anda di luar sana yg teringin nk tgk org bogel, belajar lah Anatomy. anda akan tgk gambar2 sebegitu sampai xd selera. macamana nk belajar Anatomy tuh? ha belajar la rajin2, cita2 jd doktor, barulah cara skodeng anda lebih berhemah. but still xjumpa pen-skodeng sebenar. baru jumpa pelapis mereka. haiya benda2 cmni pn nk pelapis.

don't judge a book by it's cover (Kurt Cobain Malaya, 2011)

ayat2 ini terpancul dr mulut beliau kerana aku tak sudah mengata beliau walhal beliau sebenarnya berbeza ngn apa yg aku nilai. i bet you guys rm50. kalau sape2 nampak KCM ni, mmg korg akan ckp benda yg sama mcm aku. tp aku tak dibenarkan mempamerkn gambar beliau atas sebab menjaga maruah. so.. peminat Nirvana boleh la google beliau later on. one thing i can tell you, he's so much better than Kurt Cobain. fiwit!

xoxo

bittersweet dan ikan bakar

2011-05-28T15:28:00.005+08:00

semalam malam aku berkobar2 ke Sekinchan Ikan Bakar yg baru dibuka di Jln Plumbum, Seksyen 7 Shah Alam (berhampiran dgn wisma Jakel). sebab apa? sebab ada free show drpd Bittersweet lah! punya la gersang cari member sape nk makan ikan bakar yg xtahu sedap ke x. last2 ada la gak yg nk ikut. tenkiu guys.

aku siap pegi book meja, pesan kt org kedai 'saya nk tengok bittersweet. meja mesti depan stage' cett xdapat la brader. depan stage VIP. ahh janji dapat tengok, aku on. so deal dah dgn kedai tersebut. masa aku ngah sibuk ber-deal, aku dah nampak bassist dorg (ape nama pn aku xtahu). then......... gahh! pijan dan rakan2 ada melepak di satu meja belakang stage. nice. aku curi2 tengok tp control. xnak nampak jakun sangat. aritu kata potong rambut encik pijan, bersarang gak rambut tuh.

Bittersweet dijangka muncul pukul 930 tetapi ditunda ke pukul 10. aku sampai punya la awal, xnk miss satu pn. sementara tunggu member, budak2 band ni kehulur kehilir lalu depan aku. Amir Abdullah suruh aku kirim salam kt Pijan dan Heri. xterbuka mulut aku ni weh. cemas sangat lettew. last2 aku cakap gak kt si Pijan. ceh panggil cm member lama.

aku : Pijan! meh a sembang jap. (sukahati aku je kn)

Pijan : hehehe (tersengih dan datang ke meja aku)

aku : Pijan, ada member ni kirim salam. dia nk datang tp xdapat la. ada problem

Pijan : Waalaikumsalam. sape eh?

aku : Amir

Pijan : budak mana?

aku : Kedah (eh xkan la si Pijan ni kenal Amir. redah jelaaa..)

Pijan : (muka xpaham)

aku : dia selalu datang tengok korg perform. semangat nk tengok tp dia xde kt sini

Pijan : laa yeke. kesian.. dia kt mana sekarang?

aku : Puncak Alam

Pijan : ohh xpela kalau camtu..

aku : Bittersweet datang la Puncak. ramai fans kt sana (yela tu)

Pijan : haha xdapat la weh

aku : (errr nape eh? tp aku xtanya kenapa pn) hehe

Pijan : eh awak dah makan? (bahaha awak? okeng!)

aku : belum lg. tunggu member.

Pijan : ok gerak dulu

aku : orait.

so that was one helluva chat that makes me gila sebentar. hoi xreti sebenarnya nk beramah mesra ngn artis. aku try gak nk tegur si Heri.. tp haihh segan bebenor aku nk panggil. muka da la garang.

pukul 10 Bittersweet perform 4 lagu from their new album. and the 2nd session pukul 1130 malam. lama gila nk tunggu dorg perform. serious bosan. xpela. berbaloi2. 2nd session 5 lagu. yg melekat kt otak sekarang ni Getaran Jiwa ngn lagu The Beatles. ranggi.

so budak2 Puncak Alam, maaf Bittersweet xdapat datang. Amir Abdullah, lain kali aku sampaikn salam kau kt Heri yek

bg aku la, kedai makan tu kureng. nk ikan bakar sedap, pergi Melaka. :)

angin gembira

2011-05-27T17:29:00.006+08:00

so yesterday was my third blind-date. it wasn't that bad. movie and hangout like everyone did. we watched the movie KARAK. frankly, it's okay. no screams from my throat which means, tak seram. tp still tutup muka. tak mau terkejut, nanti spoil my date. yekkk. anyway... kalau ada yg belum tengok lg movie itu, tunggu kt Astro First je kot. no offense. serious tak seram. my friends were lol like hell and my date was laughing all the way till the movie ends.

i used my bro's ipod touch. i was so lame cause i totally do not know how to use 'foursquare' application. so i've tried it while waiting my house mates buying ice cream. go online and hope to see the result but boom! nothing on my profile. means, my foursquare was failed.

so these new friends i've made are Sarawakian. my god i don't understand what the hell are they talking bout. i was kinda trying to be nosy but at the end, i dunno what to talk. coz i don't friggin understand. c'mon we are Malaysian. again i am a lame person.

i brought Kay's ukulele that night. he likes it. and what the hell on earth i lend that thing to him. hoi org punya.. sesedap hati je bg org lain. hmm pinjam je pn. i trust him. so tell me what's that supposed to mean?

we arrived home at 6am douche! i didn't attend to Anatomy class due to deep-sleep-till-afternoon. i was awake coz my other house mate is cooking for lunch. im still friggin exhausted right now. i just couldn't sleep, it's just tired. guess i won't going back home late till dawn. aku rasa banyak gila angin dlm badan ni. sungguh lemau.

p/s: thank you for the treats Mr muka taman, hati legend!

lapok

2011-05-25T23:19:00.004+08:00

berkulat da blog ni. otak ni numb untuk menaip di sini. so what to do now?

i got few updates here:

July 13th - Malaysia vs Arsenal

July 16th - Malaysia vs Liverpool

July 21st - Malaysia vs Chelsea

so who's in? im going to support Malaysia la of course. woot im looking forward to see John Terry.

well for storybook lovers, just in case you guys haven't read The Catcher in the Rye, it was a helluva book i have ever read. it was about how to keep on living, in a modern American ways. just take the bright side of the storyline then you'll be fine. if you know Frank Iero, you might know the band Pencey Prep! (The band's name is from the book The Catcher In The Rye) it's actually a fictional school in the book. and they got 'The Secret Goldfish' which is also one of the Pencey Prep's song. it is as good as hell. no kidding. im on my way reading To Kill A Mockingbird. tough book btw. so damn tough.

so glad having this borrowed-guitar. it always with me through the thick and thin. i am so doomed these days.

take care you guys

xoxo

hari kejatuhan aku

2011-01-21T19:10:00.003+08:00

trip to Lata Carok, Janda Baik was epic!

tapi banyak sgt insiden jatuh menjatuh. agk kecik hati.. tp xpe.

- daki gunung, banyak kali slip (JATUH jugak la kn). licin ye, jgn salahkn aku xreti jalan.

- ada la 1 cerun ni, agk curam dan licin. sebelum JATUH, sempat paut kt ponggong Ijat. blanja sket brader

- nk pitam. xbiasa la beb. aku ni kuat pitam. JATUH sedikit sbb da tak tahan penat

- dah sampai check point 5, dorg suggest naik ats lagi. da naik, xjd pulak. kena turun semula. dgn penuh kerisauan tentang pacat, aku turun. dan... JATUH terduduk. diam sambil tersenyum.

- air terjun, mestilah dipenuhi ngn batu kelikir yg super licin. slip @ JATUH tergelincir sudah menjadi kebiasaan

- nak pass brg kt kwn pn boleh tergelincir kt tanah yg licin itu. JATUH terduduk di khalayak ramai

- sorg neh main siram2 air pulak. revenge la konon, nk balas balek. last2 aku yg JATUH dlm air. kui3

- JATUH ke dlm kawasan plg dalam di situ sebanyak 4kali samada sengaja atau tidak sengajakn. wahh bergelen air dah aku telan. kembung. trimas kpd penyelamat2 yg banyak berjasa. act aku nk mnyelamatkn diri sndiri. nk berusahalah konon. tp kurang berjaya. cuba lg.

- 1 scene dimana kaki kiri tersepit kt sorg makhluk montok, kaki kanan tahan kt batu, tangan kiri kt bahu penyelamat, tgn kanan berpegang kuat pd heroin. air terjun mencurah2 menghempap aku. keadaan xterkawal sehinggalah seluar aku terJATUH. the most awful event of the year

- perjalan balik, fizikal sgt yakin dan bertenaga. pikul plastik sampah yg nipis. akhirnya plastik putus dan sampah terJATUH

- ya aku masih fit. tapi masih mahu JATUH terduduk di tempat x sepatutnya.

conclusion: i need more physical activities.

thank you rakan-rakan diatas sokongan anda semua.

sleepless night

2011-01-12T06:06:00.002+08:00

it is 0607 and i'm still sitting like a jerk.

you know what make my night sleepless? a non-stop farts and burps. this is irritating like fuck.

i was awake since 3am. i got a very bad stomach-ache since yesterday but this time in additional of farts and burps. urgh sorry for being disgusting. i couldn't help it.

at 0540, i switched on the radio on my cell. the annoyed feelings even 'amplified' after knowing that Justin Bieber is coming to town. seriously ha? double farts babes. sorry JB fans. he's adorable anyway.

guess i have to go solat Suboh first then pray to God that i could sleep well later on.

1/1/11

2011-01-01T20:09:00.003+08:00

what's up with the date? naah nothing much. it's just a new date for a new year. so happy new year people!

new year's resolution? i got my own like every month. no need to wait till new year. but this time around, kinda tricky. cause it's not mine but i have to achieve it, for mom's sake. DUHH. a real boyfriend before 6th semester ends. pretty tough huh. if nothing comes, idk what will happen next.

anyways, i really wanna be a better person starting today. I've been such an asshole for quite some time so uhh hopefully this year everything turns out positive. i wish i'm not goin to any concerts anymore. MU-HA. exceptions to A7X and MCR. others can be nego.

take care

be positive

2010-12-30T21:11:00.002+08:00

love the lyrics. gimme strength and faith. :)

i need to change myself, into some kind of better person. ERR

Ultras Rengit

2010-12-28T11:51:00.003+08:00

peminat setia
kt stadium xboleh baring cmni

aku TERPAKSA xpegi SBJ last sunday for the 1st leg final match. DANGG! kawen pny pasal, aku korbankn interest aku. hope it's worth. da pesan kt kazen

Syuhada: Kak, kte nk buat stadium astro kt area tu boleh x? flat screen kn. besau plak tu. boleh? boleh? ahd ni, pukul 8mlm.

Kazen: boleh xd masalah. nape x psg layar layar putih?

Syuhada: err kt umah ni ade projektor ke?

Kazen. ohh aah ek. lupe.

Syuhada: =.='

so yeah.. aku pastikan sume sedara2 aku bersedia lepas rewang, berpakaian kuning, biru atau hitam. no endon2. biarkn bibik endon di dapur. pukul 7 kami semua da siap mandi, dress up. hampes adik aku sndiri pki putih. xpelah. janji Ultras. 1950 Wan buka tv. aku berdiri depan tv sambil cekak pinggang. sume penonton bersedia belakang aku. tup tup tup.. TV1 xde. HAIHH!! (umh ni xd astro) ok. moral down. tgk jam.. da 2005. dlm hati da maki hamun. kazen lain usaha jaya cri channel. aku terus bersuara 'jom umah Pak Long. sekarang!' pastu teringat lak kereta tu ayah aku yg pny. jgn buat decision sesuka hati ye. hati aku berbuku buku. ayah aku simpati agaknya. dia pn cakap 'ok jom balik umh Atok. sape nk ikot pukul 830 kte gerak' DADDY COOL! muahhhh. xpelah 830, janji tgk. org ajk dinner, aku xd selera. padahal lapar tiada tandingan. 830 Avanza ayha trus menuju Sg Dulang. kete penuh ngn bdk Ultras. terharu.

kt umah Atok menggelinjang cm org sawan. mcm ktorg kt stadium. tp bile match cool down, sume baring2. aku sorg je duduk. bila gol, main dukung2. lepas bersorak, aku ternganga tgk 3 kali dukungan antara 2 bdk laki berkain pelikat yg sudah besar itu. yelah 3goals kn, 3 dukungans lah. ayah sibuk stadi kt depan. bila dgr ktorg pekik, beliau datang. tu jela. kami maki pn mcm da kt stadium. hantu kt umah tu agaknya naik seram ngn ktorg.

aku terima hakikat, aku xpegi stadium. berat hati beb. tp nk wat camne kn? Ultras Sg Dulang orait gak.

i saw dead people

2010-12-21T00:17:00.005+08:00

Just finished watching Avenged Sevenfold Live in the LBC. i saw this cool dude rockin on the stage. he's fucking awesome. woops sorry for the harsh words. can't help it after watching the DVD. M. Shadows used the words too much. lame excuse! so there you go, dead motherfucker playing the drums; Jimmy Sullivan aka The Rev. miss him so much. damn im so gay. you'll be missed buddy. (buddy huh?)

p/s: i was attracted to The Rev before Zacky V. Zacky is a ladies' guy, so i choose to pick some other not-really-famous man. better The Rev than Johnny. ahah! on that day, i was like 'what he's dead?!! LIAR you teettt' can't believe he's gone. STFU and go to sleep.

sorry
xo

balai polis yg cool

2010-12-08T13:25:00.003+08:00

just get back from surveying summons. nape survey plak? sebab aku xboleh bayar saman lg. bukan main lama menunggu, hampes.

sampai balai pukul 10. masuk balai, penuh dgn org. men to be exact. i was thinking, ni balai polis lelaki ke? memerhati selama 10mins. ok baru ambil no giliran. tp nape ramai org beratur? aku pn xtahu. DARN 2339. sekarang: 2141. woots lama lg tuh. 1030 pegi pejabat pos. dengar cerita kt pos pn boleh bayar saman.

kt pos, cari notis tentang bayar saman polis. URGH xde. memerhati lg. kt kaunter pertanyaan xde org. aiseh.. pukul 1050 baru jumpa org utk ditanya. BOLEH jawabnya. yay! no giliran xlama sgt la. dalam 12 org dihadapan. aku tunggu. sampai turn aku, org pos ckp: nama xde dalam senarai lg la cik. pegi balai polis trus. OKAYYY BAIKLAH (sambil mengeluh).

pukul 1215 masuk balai, no 2187. wak lu! aku pn terasa cm giveup. xpela.. dpt seat, duduk dulu. pakcik sebelah bertanya: dah semak saman? aku: kt mana? perlu ke? pakcik: ni yg beratur panjang ni, nk semak saman lah. ntah la. perlu kot. cuba u pegi tanya kt kaunter. aku pn pergi lah.. woots polis wanita bengis semalam! buat2 xkenal. 'cik, saya ada surat saman. kena check saman lg ke?' polis wanita: xpayah. ambil no, tunggun giliran. tegas.

pakcik yg concern td bertanyakan: amcm? aku: tunggu giliran je. xpayah beratur. sambil tu aku berangan, tengok org, 'mau sampai ke petang neh'. sigh.. sigh.. sigh.. DUA DUA KOSONG KOSONG. arghh lamanya! pakcik td tiba2 pass 1 nombor kt aku. 'nah u amek no ni'. aku spt biasa blur memanjang. ape ni? ape ni? tp pakcik tu da blah. 2207. yay beliau bg no kt aku lah! xlama lg je. HOH LEGA. amoi depan aku ushar aku, jeles lah tu aku dapat no awal. then dtg lg sorg pakcik yg agk hi-klas, mengushar aku. speaking2 gitu. aku panggil 'pakcik' je. segan nk speaking, dah la kena saman. rasa bersalah besar. pakcik hi-klas tu punya saman lg banyak. beliau sembang2 sket ngn aku. bg moral support ah konon. then beliau ckp: i tumpang no u boleh? mu-ha dah agk dah. boleh! boleh! xde masalah. since aku xreti deal ngn polis, i need some help. nsbek ada pakcik ni. 2207 - aku trus ke kaunter. pakcik tu yg hulurkan aku pny saman. tenkiu pakcik. polis: nama kamu xde dalam sistem lg la cik. WHATTHE. grrrr. dtg lain kali ye. aku meninggalkn kaunter dgn sedikit berbuku dihati. sementara tunggu pakcik hi-klas, maki hamun dlm hati. 'nasib baik xtunggu 2339. c*******' pakcik menyusul. thanks ye encik tolong saya. encik la plak. whatever.

conclusion:

1 - terasa ranggi pegi polis sbb dpt bercampur dan bertukar pendapat dgn lelaki berumur disana. feel like im an adult. huiyoh!

2 - lain kali nk bayar saman, lepas sebulan baru bayar. shitto. pastu kena masuk court. bagus.

can i write? just a moment.

2010-12-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

screw me. habit menjadi2: stalking others. i know it sucks but can't help it.

kinda impressed to see people nowadays really good in English. so effing good like they're English people. blame myself cause im dumb in both English and BM. campur2 boleh la. so i was stalking this profile, shit. i dont wanna tell it . but yeah, 'desperate' i guess. eh takde lah desperate kot. kesunyian. ok cont.. i knew him before from other social network. stone-hearted guy, rock n roll and kicked people asses a lot. but now i found he's totally diff. like seriously diff. mcm loser jek. OPPS. aku pun loser.

just now i read his blog. woots! dulu2 kn, punya la gagah budak sorg neh. aku pun cuak gak la nk tego dia. tp dah lain beb. im saying based on his blog. i dunno him anyway. never mind whatever. but he said 'he made love' DUDE!! aku siap search dict utk confirmation. waduh rosak.. rosak.. hmm up to u lah buddy. me not the perfect one either. just reminding myself and i feel like wanna blown up rite now.

the end. told ya! just a moment.

Man Kidal yg disayangi

2010-11-29T18:59:00.005+08:00

tengok Rapunzel dgn org plg ranggi sem ni. beliau sorg roksta yg dikenali ramai. tp tgk Rapunzel. bahaha tenkiu bro!

niat dihati nk bertemu Man Kidal, Slash Malaysia. dah jumpe dah pun. ternganga. tp aku lg impress bile otai tgk Rapunzel ni dah mcm CEO. gerek duh! oh lg 1, tempat tu ade LOVE IT OR DIE. fuiyohh!! love love.

mcm ada badi plak si Man Kidal ni ye. tak sampai 5min meninggalkn beliau, aku disaman. xpakai seat belt. cantek! mmg salah aku. aku plak lurus bendul.. yelah rm100. nah! (hutang)

hasil saman td, aku agak seteressss. cuba cool down. mmg habit aku: kalau org dok cucuk2 kete, aku balas balik. xmau kalah. melainkn aku yg ptot mengalah. semua org tahu pemandu teksi cmne. kn? kn? tipulahh kalau korg xtau. time ak ngah serabut ni lah teksi wat prangai.. dgn xbagi signal, nk gak inject aku. depan kereta Nissan, sporty la gak. xlupa, kereta baru tu beb! dush. berlanggar. damn. maaflah rakan, harini ko naik kete aku berganda2 malangnya. sian beliau... woots! indian lah. besar, berantai. o man i wish he's not hindraf. seriously. nasib baik, xkena ganti apa2.

lastly aku rasa.. cool gak kena saman, langgar bumper org neh. bukan driver lah bai kalau tak rasa benda2 ni. YEAH! (hutang polis la plak. cis)

kau sahabat kau teman

2010-11-25T19:51:00.003+08:00

15 nov 2010 - 'shoot ko dgr berita x MZ meninggal?'

terima kasih sahabat kerana mengingatkan kami tentang kematian (Kal-Kausar, 2010). hari ni genap 10 hari arwah tinggalkan keluarga, kenalan dan sahabat handai. aku bukanlah kawan rapat masa skola dulu. ya lah.. beliau pengawas, aku murid biasa yg terjal. tapi arwah MZ tetap layan aku seperti rakan2 pengawasnya yg lain.

masa f4, aku betting ngn Kal. aku nk pi ngorat si MZ. ahh takde keje. yes i did it. tp bukan la flirting for real. arwah tak penah cakap ngn aku. so kira mcm cara aku approach beliau. arwah MZ layan aku dgn baik. xsampai hati plak nak memain lg. so aku tak lg sibuk nk ngorat beliau. deal plak dah expired. tp arwah kwn ngn aku. beliau garang, tegas. aku ni plak jenis main2. beliau tahu treat aku.. dalam marah2 pn, arwah ckp baik2 ngn aku. setahu aku la.. arwah tak penah marah aku. tp geng2 aku merangkap pengawas berkaliber la yg basuh aku habis2an. err aku xdelah nk cakap aku terpikat kt beliau, tp aku sangat respect sama arwah MZ. kalau nk ckp ngn beliau, kena prepare skrip, rehearsal, baru ada kekuatan.

since arwah seorang yg berpengaruh, dan aku bersekolah di sekolah agama, arwah pandai tarik pelajar supaya sukakan nasyid. beliau buatlah pelbagai cara supaya kami sukakan nasyid. slide show hasil nukilan arwah menarik, gabungan ngn Sholin. aku suka! tp again, aku xrapat ngn orang berpengaruh mcm mereka. jadi xbanyak memori yg melekat dijiwa.

sampai hari ni, kadang2 aku teringat arwah MZ. aku teringat muka dan suara beliau di perhimpunan, pertandingan tilawah. sedap suara arwah.

semoga Allah tempatkan Mohamad Zulhilmi b Ibrahim di tempat yg mulia disisiNya

R.I.P buddy.

just a short story

2010-11-19T23:40:00.002+08:00

i was adopted by John Winchester. now he's gone. so i stay with his sons aka my new brothers

Sam and Dean have decided to live separately. but Dean asked me to follow Sam. i just followed his order coz he's the eldest.

Sam bought me a new home. he wants me to have a life, go to college and live like a normal kid. he brought me to an apartment and he taught me how to do the supernatural ritual. u know, protect urself from being possessed etc. then he left me alone in the room. he closed the door and walk away. just like 5 seconds later, i felt something weird, creep. i scream 'Sammy! Sammy!' i heard his footsteps running towards my room. as soon as he opened the door, he saw me, lying on the floor like a falling mannequin. lying still.

'plop' something fall on tummy. it was dark. there is SOMETHING on my tummy. gah i knocked aside those THING. whatta heck? i was dreaming. yet the THING on my tummy was fuckin real. after that i heard that THING running.

duh can't sleep. wondering what was that plopping on my tummy. i was guessing, feels like a lizard but the way it runs, it's not a lizard. fuck is that a rat? no. coz i dont feel any fur or hair, i guess. i woke up and run upstairs, find another better place to sleep.

during lunch, my nanny said she saw a frog hopping around me. FUCK YOU! another frog!

dude seriously i am not goin to sleep on that usual spot anymore. who cares. im gonna sleep upstairs with the guys. grrrrr

persembahan pertama

2010-11-15T22:26:00.004+08:00

berakhir sudah cabaran aku utk perform di atas stage. susah juga ya.

1st time nyanyi depan pakar muzik, mmg neves. bak kata Kay: aku nampak bibir ko menggeletar.

lepas dr tu, aku semakin yakin melontarkan vokal di khalayak mereka berdua. sampai hujan area Puncak Alam.

first rehearsal, segan la plak. depan klasmate je pn. tp guna mic. even me myself can hear my voice shaking. apa nk buat utk hilangkn neves? dua2 tangan pegang mic, kaki sebelah landing kt mic stand. ok kot. setelah mendapat sokongan dr rakan2, aku tampil dengan lebih yakin. terima kasih!

hari kejadian: dah la lapar. perut kecut sbb cemas. tak tentu hala dibuatnya. gitar plak buat hal. Kay da maki hamun. Mat Asmara tenang sahaja. asyik ajak 'Shoot jom praktis' lebih dr 10x dia cakap ayat tuh. takpe Asmara, I will follow ur orders.

'dipersilakan Syuhada, Mat Kay dan Asmara!' spontaneously aku melompat kehadapan. nak ambil ketenangan, lihat audience dan senyum. warm up sket, tarik perhatian then bila semua dah ready, Asmara: 3 4. jeng! -the only exception. i wonder, org suka betul part 'you ARE the only exception' the word ARE sangat jelas sampai kami bertiga nk tergelak. lets sing along bebeh!

next song.. owww sgt mengambil masa aku nk hayati lagu ini. pujuk hati: Syuhada, halus sket. jgn muntah. and there u go, I've made it. aku buat yg terbaik sbb rakan2 bg dorongan yg terbaik. again, dankeschon.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0y6h6rCDsU

kepingin

2010-11-06T21:47:00.003+08:00

apa best sangat pegi oversea? tertanya2.

yep agak best. bak kata pepatah, jauh perjalanan, luas pemandangan.

biarlah ia hanya mimpi, akan tetapi, stim sungguh mimpi itu. aku dah landing kt airport London. aku dah terbang atas Las Vegas Desert, dah tengok Universal Studio USA, Amazon waterfall. ntah kejadah apa aku terbang. 'wah cantiknya. sampai nak menangis rasanya' itulah dialog aku selepas melihat keindahan alam.

berangan je.

i say this guy is sexy when he...

2010-10-21T23:03:00.002+08:00

1 - got lip-piercing

2 - since music influences me too much, i like when a guy plays bass or guitar while tapping his foot. like Jeremy Davis of Paramore did. try to check it out on Crushcrushcrush video. i even saw he plays with my own eyes. that is damn sexy.

3 - on the video Hollywood Whore by Papa Roach, Coby Dick sings it with some kind of face expression. really dunno how to explain but yeah, sexy dude. 'cocaine nose and trendy clothes'

4 - everyone knows Synyster Gates is sexy.

check it out on 0.55 - 0.59. wachha!!

5 - flat ass. he doesn't have to take off his pants to show how big his ass right?

no one is as lucky as us

2010-10-20T14:28:00.004+08:00

adapted from Where the lines overlap - Paramore

went to their show last nite. woohoo!! like that hyper guy said AWESOME!

hell yeah it was awesome. scream till my lungs out. i do feel my throat bursting out from it's original position. LMAO. just can't help it, i love screaming.

dude, the hyper guy sat in front of me, 90% looks like Roy. ohmygay. but his manners totally out la. he supposedly bought the rock zone tix so he can join the mosh pit. not at the 'free seating' zone.

guy next to me, is an Indonesian. he owned DSLR. bapak die jeles dowh! gmbr sume leh nmpk bulu idong Hayley. nggak fair!!! aku curi2 tengok je. keh3.

y2k who the hell? trimas to Jeb for sharing some info bout the band. at least i prepare myself. cool! kalo x cool, aku takkan clap, headbang and scream for y2k. like i used to when i saw Wondergirls. y2k rockstar!

Paramore naek 3 kete SUV seh. Malaysian got this very high level of confidence bile nampak kete tu masuk, yakin itu adalah Paramore.

Hayley so energetic. her band, fuhh bermain sambil berdansa and tapping their feet. lain sket ngn MCR. Mikey prefer to stand still but Jeremy didn't. cantek. they do appreciate their fans so much. so we appreciate u guys too. Josh and the rest of the band did a very fucking well job.

masa ngah main lagu Misguided Ghost (even me myself dunno the lyrics), Hayley point the mic to the crowd asked us to sing along. i was like LA LA LA LA... suddenly sound system broke out. starting with disappearance of Hayley's voice. then bunyi2 guitar bass sume hilang. ciss buat malu ja. the whole band trus back off. hopefully dorg xmerajuk.

ak xhapal sume lagu pon. join hyper guy headbanging. die pusing2 baju die yg basah, tempias peluh kt muka aku. sedap.

apa nak jadi ni Syuhada Sulaiman

2010-10-16T12:04:00.002+08:00

it happens again!!.. sigh.. sigh..

tangan ada 2, tp nak wat banyak keje dalam 1 masa. ajar Wani cmne nk wat table kt microsoft word, nak baca patho sambil fb, nak jaga Huda yg hyperactive. last2 Huda jatuh dari katil. masa tu aku paling dekat dgn dia. DOOM! kuat la boleh tahan. based on bunyi, aku yakin frontal lobe dia landing dulu kt jubin ni. sumpah terkejut gile, terus medukung Huda yg sedang menjerit kesakitan. cuak.. cuak.. jap lagi Mama Ayah mesti datang dan tnya khabar adik. menangis agak kuat tp tempoh yg singkat. aku check Huda, dia dah semyum2. i thought she's fine. dia minum dan gelak seperti biasa. so aku naik atas semula, mahu sambung dgr Adam Lambert dan membaca slide Liver Ca.

1 min later, dengar adik nanges sedu sedan. macam penah dengar tangisan tu. sama mcm kejadian lama. aku pun turun utk check it out. Mama cakap, dahi dia bengkak mcm bola pingpong. air mata bergenang kekecewaan. da 2kali aku buat cmni. memanglah org ckp aku xsengaja, tp... FML. rasa diri ini hopeless. aku terus naik atas utk meng-cool-kn jiwa. Ayah plak tanya, adik nape? aku jwb jelah ape yg patot. Ayah hampa. down. down. masuk bilik. rasa nk bunuh diri. cm sakit Liver Ca. sialan sungguh aku ni.

nk tau yg dulu aku buat apa?

aku siram air panas yg baru mendidih ke badan Huda. ya.. aku x sengaja. tp adakah alasan itu kukuh utk menenangkn keadaan?... WTF aku nk cakap neh? jubo.

exams vs concerts

2010-10-15T19:42:00.004+08:00

exam dah dekat, buku tak baca lagi, concert berlambak. apecer?

pukul 345 semalam ak terbaca post Juliez Boyd: i have extra 1 seat for Glambus n concert tixx. aku dengan bahagianya menjawab nk2! ingatkan nak bergurau senda. serious rupenye! call Ju, die cakap 5pm gerak pegi Sri Pentas. dalam masa itu, hanya Bill dan Dalila je yg sempat diberitahu. berbekalkan rm34.20 dalam purse, aku keluar umah, amek camera kt Nai, cari Ju sampai minyak abes. isi minyak rm20, tinggal rm14.20. nk contatct Ju, XDE KREDIT PLAK!! topup rm10. tinggalah rm 4.20 (3 keping duit kertas rm1, dan syiling bernilai rm1.20). mmg gle. pk, nk makan minum camane? Tol lagi. aiseh.. redah jela. da jumpe Ju, around 540m baru gerak dari Shah Alam. Glam bas akan bergerak ke Bukit Jalil pada pukul 630pm. damn laju gle drive tp jalan penuh ngn kete, kena slow down. minyak surut dengan pantasnya. risau.. risau.. bila sampai kt Tol, konon2 keluarkn purse nk korek rm1.60. dengan harapan Ju hulur sket. YAY die sponsor sepenuhnya tol kami. lega... dan akhirnya sampai gak kt Sri Pentas pukul 645pm. haha.. dorg lambat sbb tunggu kami. sorry guys.

naik bus Hot FM. frankly tak best. senyap je. pakcik bas pasang lagu Adam, xd yg sing along. kui3 malang. ha yg best naik Glam Bus ni, da la pegi Stadium org hantar, dinner plak disediakan. rezeki... syukur.

sampai Stadium Bukit Jalil pukul 759pm, glam bas Fly FM da bersorak kegirangan, menyanyi2. kami? macam baru bgn tdo. tp duduk sebelah Ju, xleh tdo langsung. bersembang.

masuklah kami ke dalam Stadium dengan Glitter powder yg diberikn oleh Hunny Madu. haiya rimas! nama pun glamer kn.. 2 opening acts yg aku xknal langsung tp layankn je. then Adam pun muncul ngn gahnya di atas stage. suara aku pun dengan gahnya terpekik terlolong sambil tinjit kaki. tinggi sangat org depan aku. oh tix free yg aku dapat dr Ju (hasil kemenangan di station Fly FM) ialah rock zone, worth rm192. loooooooove. :D

1040 concerto tamat. pulang dengan gembira dan puas sebab free. Ju tny: nk air? aku jawab dengan tenang: tak haus lg. kalau minum, kenyang. xlarat nk jalan. xde point langsung bukan? jawab jela xde duit. tp belagak. tup2 Ju beli 2 botol. die belanja. YAY! control minum, sket2. konon2 x dahaga sangat la.

drive pulang ke Shah Alam dengan tol yg disponsor oleh Ju lagi. minyak ngam2. syukur....

next tuesday Paramore plak. uiyo! kalau la pegi konsert masuk dalam pointer, boleh dapat AD kot.

yay! The Killjoys.

2010-10-14T12:27:00.002+08:00

*Party Poison *Jet Star *Fun Ghoul *Kobra Kid. sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeett

i've been watchin Na Na Na for 5 times in 30minutes. friggin awesome! honestly i almost hit my head on the wall seeing Frank smiles and winks his eye. OMG.

The future is bulletproof

The aftermath is secondary
It's time to do it now and do it loud
KIlljoys make some noise!

what's up with checkerboard?

2010-10-02T20:56:00.003+08:00

my favorite shoes

The world as been attacked by the 'satanism' issue. i'm kinda numb bout this, yet i know a bit. well yes a bit. i have a concern brother who love to tell me bout Illuminati. i wasn't care like he did, but i care at least.

wasn't goin to talk bout it but im just a bit curious. bout checkerboard. is it really necessary to say that checkerboard is satanism? in my humble opinion, it wasn't fuckin fair. i have few checkerboard stuffs, coz i love them. people play 'dam haji', is this count? well i shocked when i read rumors, Lady Gaga is Illuminati. even shocker to know that Tokio Hotel is part of them too. bloody hell. last but not least, the whole America is Satanism. so i guess i have to stop listening to their music then. errr

correct me if i'm wrong. thank you.

raya yang lain

2010-09-14T23:34:00.002+08:00

1 - ayah xde. da la adik xde, ayah pn xraya sama di kmpung.

2 - drive dgn gagahnya since mama ade kt blakang. mcm2 pantang larang diberi.

3 - hari last puasa, mengerjakan umah usang atok yg hmpir setahun ditinggalkn. hooo sgt bnyk kerjanya. ak prefer pegi bakar sampah. ade 2 lot aku jaga. last2 pitam.

4 - mlm raya, Pak Unggal suro setiap org bg ucapan. aiseh aku failed. hentam ajelah.

5 - pg raya, bgn lambat. xde bende dow. maybe sbb ade 3 families je time tu. tv plak rosak. tercengang2 jela

6 - mlm raya ke2, aku terjaga dr tidur. sbb.... ak rse ade bnde plop kt kepala aku. then aku dgr kanak2 menjerit 'katak! katak!' pusing bdn, trus nmpk abg Pie sergah ngn berus jamban, nk halau katak. cis landing kt kepala aku rupeny katak ni. JIJIK!

7 - ptg sket raya ke2 lepas marhaban, Zuan Nau dan Uda dtg umah atok. uiyo makcik pakcik tgk dorg penuh ghairah. Pak Uda ckp 'ganasnye..' ha pkai lg topi, rantai g raya umah org. cantek.

8 - follow dorg ke batu pahat. slack abes la. mama pesan kt Nau 'jgn blek lewat sgt'. Nau cemas.

9 - jgn lewat sgt ye. kol 0030 bru smpai umah. nsbek meeting org tua xabes lg. bersembang ngn kazen2 dewasa di luar umah. 0130 bru msuk tdur.

10 - plan nk bawa mama beraya umah sedara. rupa2nya... kunci Avanza tertinggal dlm myvi Nau. double cemas!! Nau dtg utk kali ke2. keh3 ko sgt berjasa, bro. sian mama, xdpt g beraya. ampun.

11 - pulg ke Shah Alam disiang hari yg ptotnye waktu baring aku. mengantok sey. confirmla kt highway aku lelap. nsbek mama xprasan. testing g airport lalu Nilai. muka mesti yakin, tkot kne leter ngn mama. again nsbek jln tu btol ke airport.

12 - starbucks!!

13 - mlmnye plak ayah beli pizza. ranggi gak raya kt shah alam ni ek

14 - brulah dpt tgk tv ngn bahagia. tp bkn tgk rncangan raya. tgk MTV dan football match.

in the coffin

2010-09-14T22:59:00.005+08:00

dont mind the lyrics.

it's bout the video contents.

people holding emo cards.

there're few cards related to me.. seriously love

well, u can guess if u want to.

stuck in this room.

damn boring.

un-diagnosed mental illness i guess. aha

trying so hard to make myself comfortable.

doing assignments, playing with with these mother-f technologies.

nothing.

still empty and sucks.

oh UEFA match this morning, later!

sigh.. what else?

lek lu sap kok lu

this is an unfinished madness and other walks of life.

my dad is a hero

2010-09-07T11:53:00.003+08:00

everybody in this world will said the same. right people??.

Ayah saya rajin

Ayah saya 'comel'

Ayah saya kuat

Ayah saya loud

Ayah saya pandai

tp.... Ayah saya sangat garang. em bukan garang lah, beliau tegas. more proper. kih3

he's mad like a lion. dude i do remember i was totally a chicken when he's in front of me. kalau Ayah marah, 1 kampung leh dgr. alaa mcm cite org dulu2, org dulukn loud2 belaka. and now im such a loud girl too LOL. masa ak kecik2, haiya mcm lipas kudung. ade je aktiviti2 menarik smpai kne bantai. haa x rock la kalo xkne bantai ngn Ayah, beb. rotan Ayah ada 2, siap berbelah di depan. tp ak ske belek kesan rotan kt tgn ak. timbul2, lembut dan cntek. xtipu! ak mmg ske tarahan tu. temporary je kesan tu.. xd hal, Ayah.

bile Ayah pissed off, ak dpt rsekn aura die leh mencecah 10km dr umah. 1 area tu terdiam. so ak nk tambah 'Ayah saya hebat'. Beliau slalu cte psl life. hidup Beliau susah tp Ayah ckp, die xrasa susah pn. em betul juga. kesusahan is one of precious experience in our life.

mcm2 ade kt Ayah, i mean he's full of talents. kdg2 ak penat dgr sbb Ayah suka bercerita, mcm ak. ak garang cm Ayah. like father like daughter. but the different is: Ayah ak waras, ak kurang waras. keh3

frankly if he's gone (doesn't mean he's dead. he might be away), ak rse jiwa kosong. alaaa Ayah xd time raya ni. dok kmpung tu xbest la kalau xd Ayah. kalo ade Ayah, Ayah ajk join melepak. sbb ak xske kecah2 kt dapur tuh. leceh. al maklumlah, ak xberbakat di arena dapur-mendapur. Ayah tau ak ni cmne. xske bnde2 leceh ni. URE THE BEST! sigh.. cmne la hidup ak di Rengit tu nanti.

Pape pn, akn ku ingt pesan Ayah sebentar tadi. peace Dad.

this belly is killing me softly

2010-09-06T23:33:00.006+08:00

Burger! burger! burger! must be bulky! in my big belly! - inspired by ABBA

lately im so addicted to burger, cheeseburger especially. why? blame it on Dean Winchester ho ho ho... watching Supernatural a lot can lead to obese, i guess. Dean eats a lot of burger and i really can't help it. drooooooooooooooool.

rase cm raya ni nk requet wat biskut burger. ade x? aiseh. =.=

cheeseburger

BK black pepper

sausage mcmuffin

WAHHHHH!!!!!

adik o adik

2010-08-05T20:05:00.002+08:00

maaflah adik2. along xreti nk treat kamu cm yg kamu nk. along da cuba, tp cm xmenjadi je. sian adik2.

- along ni garang sangat kot.
- xpn, along kurang emosi. so xbest sgt kalau adik2 nk sembang ngn along. sbb along xreti nk respon. but im a good listener. har3
- along pemalas, yeah i know that.
- mulut along celaka la adik2. jgn tiru ha.

along tau layan huda je, sebab die xreti cakap lagi.
adik yg di kejauhan, pandai2 la survive ek. awk kn dan besar, dah ada awek. i am ur sibling but we're different in personalities. yet im still trying to be the good one.
hakim, nasib baik la kamu tu pendiam. alg pn pendiam gak.
along ngn wani sama2 perempuan tp taste wani ngn along lain bebenor.
waduh leceh btol aku ni.

kalau along x memenuhi citarasa adik2 semua, along minta maaf la ye. kakak kamu ni lain sket. but trust me, U GUYS ARE MY BEST FRIENDS after Mama Ayah.
hey kalau xde kamu semua, xbest langsung hidup ini.
ILY that's all i can say.

no one's to call, everybody to fear

2010-07-23T21:56:00.002+08:00

afta 3 weeks staying in Puncak Alam, frankly that place is suck. hoi jauh ngn sume tmpat. jauh.. jauh.. jauh.. bergelen2 minyak kne kua utk ke 1 tmpt. =.=! anyways.. aku bersyukur sbb tmpt tu dkat ngn fac. boo!

anyways, this months i spent lots of penny for the MTV World Stage. dude i work hard for it okay. since i got the X-ZONE passes, so it's kinda worth hopefully. YIPPIE! Tom Kaulitz, here i come!

td tgk The Sorcerer's Apprentice ngn Cik Bill. Thanks babe for the treat! luv ya. Nicholas Cage sebijik cm Chad Kroeger, Nickleback's frontman.

4 days to go Nightmare <---- Avenged Sevenfold album. Zacky V, im still loving you. mwahaha!! u know i just missing u guys so much. i wanna be the old Syuhada, who listen to metal hardcore music, who doesn't care anything, who kick everyone's asses. duh. A7X change me hell yeah.

URGH just wondering.. why girls uhh?.. nevermind.

red-eyed woman

2010-07-02T12:03:00.003+08:00

sakit mata.

wahh suda mau naek sem lah! kt sne, xd astro nk tgk tiap hari, xd tenet yg leh ak surf tiap hari. alaa. which means perjuangan ak kt worldstage.mtvasia.com akn tergendala. aiseh bile lg wa mau cri toyol neh? wa mau tgk Tokio Hotel ngn Katy Perry! :(

so this July is goin to be a busy and nervous month of the year. i hope everything's gonna be fine. Germany vs Argentina, Eclipse, World Stage. fuhh. cemas.

i was thinkin, what should i do to get MTV passes on the roadshow at Sunway this comin 17/18th July?. me and Bill are desperados who wanna those friggin tix. sbb ktorg kuat berangan, xske pijak Bumi nyata. da plan mcm2 for the concert. tp xberusaha. kui3. emm plus i got few other friends who wanna join either. em.. Bill keep on berangan-ing and me myself, sdg berusaha memfasihkn tgn strumming gta kapok yg da xbrape btol tune nya. hopefully it works coz it sounds good i guess. yet still dunno how the roadshow looks like. ntah2 suro men bnde len. aduss.. =.=!

ok nk berak. bye2!

xoxo

ADUI

2010-06-25T19:24:00.003+08:00

ntah bile la agaknye ak nk dpt si toyol itam a.k.a junior neh? bee mmg la susa nk jumpe en. isk3. letih da la mata ni. jap lg, g konset ngn mata juling. aiyo macha. still workin on it tp kalo ade sesiapa offer mau jual passes, do tell me ha. please.. so desperate duh. ak mau Tom Kaulitz dan Katy Perry.
MTV! GIVE ME THE PASSES ASAP!

Dark side of the sun video by TH suda kua. yay! Tommy ku!

err trok sgt ke kalo xde bf mse umo 22 ni? ak ilek je. kot. O.O
so tonite will be the match between Portugal and Brazil. hell yeah wanna watch it, so freakin badly. tp XDPT BEB. sbb pe? nk blek kmpung. urgh ak ni mmg ade allergic sket kalo ade bnde2 yg m'halang ak drpd menonton bola sepak. bole berkabung beb. *sigh.. sigh...

Michael Jackson in memory :)

xoxo

org.. kalo da berkapel..

2010-06-19T19:09:00.002+08:00

happy becoming father's day! luv u ayah! (like he reads this. duh)

still workin on MTV black naked guys and bees. so pathetic lah.

so yesterday Germany lost to Serbia. pity. pity. pity. tp da2 la tu en. xyah la nk bhn2 ak. ak tau da Germany klh. so what? korg terer sgt ke? sorry for being emotional. that's all i can say.

yeah i found out, bila org kalo da berkapel.. die da xendahkn org sekeliling. mmg cmtu eh? adui susa la cmni. no offense. it's just a survey and my curiosity. yela kn, ak ni mne pernah rse m'cintai seseorg (in my real life keh3). pathetic again. sorry if im not being an understanding to u guys.

cheers!
xoxo

penantian

2010-06-17T12:58:00.003+08:00

aku ni ngah desperate nk dptkn MTV ticket. kene tunggu berjam2 menanti countdown. bosan2, pegi bc blog org. bestnye idop mereka. ak nk idop best gak =)

ok lg 1 minutes
bdk sorg ni suka btol call ak time ak dah tdo. tp bile die call, ak akn bgn dgn cergasnya! tergelak2 mcm hari msih siang. pening jap.

40 sec
errr

10sec
chop!

no luck. da abes! :/

tenkiu encik Hanif Zubir. ko slalu gumbirakn ak eventho ak brape nk phm loghat Kedah hang. keh3.

dark side of the sun

2010-06-17T12:10:00.005+08:00

this is gonna be the new single from Tokio Hotel. =)

i love calculation. but not additional math of course. i calculate my money like every night. so recently i found out im NOT lack of money but have to spare some for something big. MTV WORLD STAGE. why the hell am i so eager to go? because there's Tokio Hotel. wee!! it's pathetic, i know. like i care. alright i wanna see Katy Perry too. and Bunkface but AM NOT and NEVER wanna see Wonder Girls. urgh annoying. it's a spoiler and i hate it. yet people seemed love them. so whatever. where the fuck am i gonna find money? think. this guy said, duit mmg xpenah ckup bai. yes he's right. tp tolong la ckup, for this moment only. jiwa kacau pk psl duit. right now im working so hard to get the free tix on mtv website. i look like a totally loser y'know. 24/7 in front of the screen, either at home or at the clinic. i never stop. if anyone out there wanna share some money, or give me some free tix, do tell me okay. SAP.

let's rock the world!

opps forgot bout those World Cup. AHA. football is my medicine. bastards and bitches out there who don't like football or soccer or whatever u call it, STFU. if ure dumb enough, STFU stands for 'shut the fuck up'. people might think i choose German coz TH. no way. i support for Germany before TH mmkay. coz i love those Germans' skills. Lahm, he's short like me but he's fuckin talented. FYI he's now a captain. see! short yet worth. *___* psst one thing. ak xsapot team len tp ak ade la sapot org dlmnye. eg: i didn't support for Spain but i cheer for David Villa. =)

go Germany!

Jaden Smith a.k.a xiao Dre

2010-06-11T19:01:00.005+08:00

why i put his name? what's so special bout him? he's KARATE KID. mwahaha!

i watched it with my two sibs. and after the movie, i asked them, how's it? both of them said KEWL! ahah yezza it is cool. Jaden is so talented like his daddy and mommy. so adore-licious. the bad guy Cheng, he made it! i can say he's the evil, chubby and kid version of Jet Li. LOL.

i give 4.5 out of 5 :) minus 0.5 since in the end, there's JBiebs song. sorry to say but i hate it.

lesson after watching the movie
1 - Kung-fu is the coolest thing in China. i want my son to learn it. duh
2 - hang ur jacket coz it's annoying to see things on the floor.
3 - learn mandarin language. it's kinda crucial i guess. ehem
4 - i think nowadays kids love corn rows.
5 - im goin to china one day
6 - show some respect to others please.

luv it!

the man who sold the world

2010-05-28T22:38:00.002+08:00

writing this post while listening to this Nirvana song.

ok la. wa stop la ok. pening wa. wa xmao pk psl lu lg tp lu tbe2 muncul dpan mata. wa excited gle. lu bg kata2 manis. wa cye ckp lu. wa ltak hrapan kt lu.. tp wa rse ati wa da hncur da la. err xde la hncur pn. wa givap kot. pnat tau. wa kuciwa tp wa xkesa. wa ttap suka sama lu.

xoxo

o man

2010-05-27T11:44:00.003+08:00

went for shopping with my schoolmate Izuan. unbelievable. he shopped like girl dude. well i guess he has lots of money. so it's kinda fun walking around with him coz he knows the quality and cost, not only the beauty. and he's kinda supportive guy. so uhh it's great! but im not really satisfied since i didnt get my Kerrang! magazine. RAWR!. but both of us got plenty of clothes and our legs were so tired and we didn't care. AHAH! then we're in the car all over KL like crazy and LOL all the time. it was sicko. xD oh one thing, i drove like a pro F1 driver. safe and fast. impressive. tips? bc doa sblm keluar rumah dan sblm memandu. :)

since i picked up Wan from his hostel, i've met.... STYLO! bloody hell i was totally excited. i ran towards him, jump and jump and jump like a monkey. LOL. can't control lah. i wish i could hug him. but i just hug his arm. :] Amer, promise me u meet me in Shah Alam mmkay.

so right now im searching for Kerrang! magazine via internet. the big MPH in Mid V seems doesn't have those shit so better check other store. i think Kinokuniya got one coz i found The Umbrella Academy Apocalypse Suite there. it was a big WOW y'know. well it costs RM 61.21. OH-KAY. i just bought it i dont care. then i found out 'oh i can shop online here'. then i clicked the search box. KERRANG! MAGAZINE. duh no results. maybe magazines are unsearchable. so nvm. im goin to KLCC one day. i was thinking what else i wanna buy. oh. THE UMBRELLA ACADEMY DALLAS. yippie found one!
err it's limited edition version. it costs RM 272.80. HOLYFUCK. my sneakers and my jeans cost almost the same with this motherfucker. this is kickass. i mean it's cool! not mad for it's price. im just too shocked. HAHA. mmkay so how am i gonna buy it? i must own it. think... think... think...

p/s: Wan, kte g boling lenkali a. rmi2. xmo berdua je. pastu nk Cornetto Sundae Choc lg! wee!~

seram

2010-05-21T01:31:00.010+08:00

sblm aku memulakan langkah ke tmpt itu, aku menghubungi seorg laki yg xpernah ku kenali. lgsg. aku tau dia sntiasa ada di sekelilingku tp tdak pernah ku endahkn kewujudan beliau. knapa? aku pun xtau. xpernah aku me-msg beliau tetapi beliau trus calling ak. sungguh macho. suaranya.. mcm Kurt Cobain. 'ok jumpa esok, pukul 8'. tula pesan beliau. berdebar aku bai..

esok ak seorg diri terpinga2 di kwasan terlarang itu. kasihan ak melihat diriku di cermin. seorg diri mencari identiti. aku ternampak wajahku di pantulan cermin usang 'yarhh pathetic'. lama btol la laki misteri ni dtg. 2x msg, 1x call. 'on the way. sabar weh. jgn neves', katanya.

tuut tuut.. i msg recieved. 'tgu dpan pntu msuk'. ak meluru ke pintu yg tdak ku pasti adakah itu pintu yg beliau mksudkn. ku jenguk kiri dan kanan. tiada org. sunyi sepi. hanya udara sejuk tembus ke tulangku. aku sorok di belakang pintu, seolah2 bersedia dgn apa jua yg akn berlaku. jam menunjukkn pukul 815. ish3.

tiba aku dgr suara sayup2 di kejauhan. aku xberani untuk menjenguk. cemas! cemas! tp suara itu semakin dekat. hatiku bergelodak. 'err cmne la rupa Kurt Cobain ni..'. pabila aku yakin suara itu hanya sekangkang kera dari aku, ak pn tonjolkn muka dr belakang pintu. ada 3 org. mne 1 ni? btol ke? sape mereka ini? ak hanya senyum dan follow ponggong mereka yg leper itu. 'mcm Nirvana duh' bisik hatiku. adakah mereka pukau aku karena ak hanya mem-follow mereka kemana shaja. aku sndiri xtau kemana hala tuju dan mereka tdak berkata sepatah haram. hanya yg berambut perang dan kacak bak putera katak itu berkata 'jom ikot aku'

setelah jauh berjalan, brulah aku jumpa makhluk seperti aku. yay! dah ada kawan! tp mereka ada sedikit kurang endahkn aku. mngapa ya? spt ak tidak wujud. 3 lelaki aneh itu shj yg memimpin aku ke tempat2 lain. spt mereka shj yg nampak kewujudan aku. pendek sgt ke aku ni wei?

pelik.. mmg pelik. sbb ak keseorangan. yg spesies aku td pn sedar tentang kewujudan aku beberapa jam kemudian. tp dgn adanya Nirvana yg dipimpin oleh Kurt Cobain, aku berjaya habiskn praktikal aku kt PPUKM. wee!~

terharu la.... senior2 yg temankn aku kt HUKM mmg stylo dan grudge. rse secure, korg da best i've ever had. nsbek Kurt Cobain a.k.a Nau tlg ak en. lu mmg terbaek. Nau ni la yg aja ak dr A. jujur ni. ahli Nirvana yg lain, Mini dan Anol.. geng ni aja aku MACAM2!. cmne nk idop, cmne nk survive, cmne nk treat org. bnde bai buruk sume korg aja. tp sumeny berguna. yg len tu.. ofkos la bnyk aja bnde baik. how to be a good girl and radiographer. terharu.

aku xkn lupakan korg, smpai bile2. :)

i luv u seniors! (tiada dlm gambar: Kak Intan n Abg Zaid)

lpas dpt brite en, ak trus dail no Nau. nape? adakah aku sudah terpikat dgnnya? mestilah tidak. dia abg ak bai. baek pny. sbb tu la aku call die. engage plak en. Abg ni la yg asek ajk onkol dan die ajar wat imej kritik. berkolebrasi dgn Mini dan Anol. sama2 membantu aku yg 'penyu' ini. Nau slalu bg idea dan tunjuk ajar. cara baik sket. Mini cm ayah, ajar tp garang. Anol, penghibur duka lara. bwk bskut time onkol. korg mmg best! tp nk puji Nau lbey la. die klas rep mse prac ni. hails for him. ko kawen nti Nau, ak mntk kebenaran mk ayh ak rewang umh ko 3ari 3mlm. kalo dpt. ok!

abg Nau a.k.a Kurt Cobain

i really appreciate u guys.

nau dan kembarnya.

work out!

2010-05-20T13:26:00.001+08:00

In order to get skinnier thighs, try this. Lie down on a mat and put up ur legs in the position of when you paddle a bicycle, and move your legs in the motion of paddling one too. This really does work! (especially for your thighs)
To get thinner legs (thighs AND calves), lie down on your side with an arm supporting your head. Then, with the leg that's on top, motion it all the way up and down up and down.. and switch legs as you go on and pursue.

Another (but strenuous) motion is to lean yourself against the wall and pretend you're sitting on a chair and stay in that position for about 10 seconds at first. Then to 30.. 40.. 50.. and even a minute if you can handle it. For men it forms into muscle, while for women it simply burns fat.

These really do work! I've lost 5 pounds in a week doing this exercise just for 20 minutes everyday! Of course, results may vary depending on how much you devote to these exercises. But try them. they do work! Good luck! =)

-- Katherine (katt1251@yahoo.com), April 21, 2003.

just fart. it's easy.

2010-05-19T17:13:00.003+08:00

I AM NOW IN THE MIDDLE OF DIARRHEA. fuck. what's up tummy? why are u so upset? urgh.

so i was thinking, maybe Tommy Kaulitz really took that Viagra. who cares? i care. i really am. why? answer: cause he had intercourse with lots of girls. duh like he cares. think im not goin to think bout Tom anymore. it's just disappointing. idk.

so im gonna have some fun next week. woohoo! sneakers time! gosh can't wait! then when the hell am i gonna buy a new cell phone?. -.-

i need a diet. a real killing diet. i hate to see this flabby fatty tummy (not Tommy). so how do i get started?

Nightmare was out. yippie! hails to Avenged Sevenfold. no more Jimmy a.k.a The Rev. welcome Mike Portnoy. all the best to u dude!

bored to death. bros not at home, dad just too damn busy. only mom and sis are left. frankly i feel sucks. why? coz i need a man dude. A MAN.

just wanna have some fun. the end.

xoxo

demam TOKIO HOTEL

2010-05-12T23:51:00.002+08:00

ape dah jd ngn ak ni bai? mnat plak ak kt mereka. yeahh mmg i was TH 'big' fan but not anymore since Humanoid. coz Bill looks so effin gay. however, it changed. after their show in Malaysia.. i am totally obsessed with them, especially Tom of course. everyday i check out their photos and updates. oh lg2 blog Nat. kejeny asek bc blog die and play the vid. bloody hell adorable gle mereka ni! tp dlm mse sama, ak mmg bhn si Bill la. bapok abes. err one more thing, suara Tom, peh... stim bai. i know this sounds ridiculous but yeah it is damn true. xD

quit playing games with my heart u guys.

2010-05-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

everyday i love you less and less

2010-04-26T11:40:00.004+08:00

Woke up and i realized, OHMYGAY I DREAM OF GREEN DAY DUDE! pretty exciting huh. idk why. maybe Billie Joe wants me to play Macy's Day Parade rather than World Is Black - Good Charlotte. so yeah quickly i picked up my guitar and try so hard to strum for the GD song. man, i can't follow the tune lah.. why haa? so i main tembak2, and im almost there. with the spirit of GD, i do my best! uh mmg ada Tre, he's beside me. i was staring at Billie Joe, he's playing 21 guns if im not mistaken. and i really2 saw Mike. later on all of them were talking to me like close friends. wee!~

next i checked out Natalie hitz's blog. haaa i like hers. http://nataliehitz.wordpress.com/

would you like to be my BFF, Nat? haha

while eating breakfast in front of tv, i watched this commercial break (like i care so much. nvm) but they've played a song. a song which sounds familiar to me when i was 17. sounds like Keane, Franz Ferdinand, Kaiser Chiefs, Kasabian.. im not really sure. i was searching and memorizing and searching back and forth.. hurh! yezza Kaiser Chiefs. everyday i love you less and less. best lyrics at this moment. LOL

taman selatan

2010-04-23T11:50:00.003+08:00

this is related to the famous motherfucker asshole cartoon SOUTH PARK, which i really love to watch especially when i was numb. i've watched like the first 2 seasons and trust me, those characters kicked my ass. haha like i care when mates said 'dang shoot, this cartoon wasn't cute AT ALL' u gotta be kidding me dude. im not watching because they are cute or hot or sexy bla bla bla.. wanna know why?. just shut up and go watch it.

there was a friend she told me that she heard this cartoon got such a bad attitude. they said something bout our prophet, Nabi Muhammad s.a.w. i am so alert about that but i haven't watch the episode yet, i even didn't notice which episode is it. so i kept thinking... which episode is it. still i haven't found it. yet Bill found it. bloody hell. and now it has been an issue. im in dilemma. should i watch it? damn. ok i won't watch THE EPISODE. but i got a bad feeling for this. urghh (Agent Casey moans)

i can't fly but i can kick your ass

2010-04-21T20:31:00.004+08:00

KICK-ASS: best superhero comic after WATCHMEN. hell yeah it was awesome. well, Watchmen is kinda serious superhero. i watched it due to Desolation Row as the OST. but Kick-Ass, such a stupid superhero. but hey, it's all about superheroes. they got Hit-Girl, Big Daddy, Red Mist. im gonna find the comic i guess. yeeha!

good soundtrack tho. Banana Split - The Dickies

the end

2010-04-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

da abes practical. dan ak mesti keje, nk bli handfon yg leby baik drpd hp skg ni.

i luv u bebeh

2010-04-04T10:45:00.003+08:00

i love u my motorazr v9. im missing u sooooooooooooooooooo much!!

R.I.P

cinabeng

2010-03-28T20:43:00.002+08:00

ak xske mencarot2 ni, tp senior2 ak asek sebut je.. ak pn da terikot2. smat gak mencarot ni kn.

treat me nice please. mmg la ak biol. xsenonoh, serabot. dun take it serious laa.. enjoy2 kn. muka ak ni simbol sex ke ha? curious btol. mne2 ak g, mmg terkena. xkesa ape cre skalipun. silap ak agkny melyn bnde cmtu. tp bknny ak nk btol2. men2 je la sey.. hurh! rse tertindas.

i tot i wanna be serious with u, but u treat me like a whore. so wtf.

gatal

2010-03-12T20:58:00.001+08:00

bru pulang dr sg buloh. kua ngn STYLO. yay! pd awlnye, hari ak agk siot. tayar kete msuk lubang yg BESA PUNYA! da rse down. dtmbh pula ngn stylo yg xreply msg, xpickup kol ak.. hurh bengang! da smpai sg buloh (hostel stylo), ak kne tunggu hmpir 1jam tgu respon dr stylo. ak siap cntact Baling.. grm pny psl. nsbek die respon pastu.. mcm siot. alasannya, kne gunting rambut. ok fair enuf, ak pecaya. nape ak caye? sbb ak admire die ho3. my weakness. mse tu da 1230. guess what, gosh he's hot. LOL! at the same time, mamat yg ak smgt gle nk usha, batak, angau n jiwa kaco tbe2 msg ak en. dlu bkn men susa lg nk lyn ak. cettt. mntk pic, tp lpas da sent, xreply da eh.. podahhh!! nsbek la STYLO IS THE BEST MED. ohh nmpk Lan sdg bekerja. abaikan.

BAHAGIA sket.

Do You Know Who I Think I Am?

2010-02-28T20:58:00.005+08:00

xde mkne pape, sj letak ayt ni kt facebook ak. dlm rmi2 yg komen, ade sorg guy ni merespon. die ni mmber skul dlu. kamceng gak a. die tny 'ko gal ke?'

cett slalu shj org bertnyakn soalan ni. ak ni xde rupa pmpn ke?? xpuasati. bkn sorg dua, rmi beb! stiap tmpt ak g, stiap org yg ak knal, msti ade diklangan mreka yg curious ak ni laki ke pmpn. eventho ak memakai tudung. so i was wondering, how should i respond with those stupid question. idk man.. anyway, xkesa sgt. just curious.

A7X HXC

2010-02-14T13:16:00.004+08:00

today, im in the mood of Avenged Sevenfold. still, i miss Jimmy Sullivan sooo much. check out A7X Myspace and read their blog. there was a blog from M. Shadows, talking bout The Rev. anyways.....

A7X 4 LIFE

ZACKY VENGEANCE RULEZZZ

THE REV ALWAYS IN OUR HEART

we used to be friends

2010-02-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

it was so unbelievable to have a fight with her. fight? im not sure. because im emotionless. every time i replied her, i just woke up. so yeah.. nothing's in my mind. but.. y'know we used to be bf thru the internet. she's fine, frankly yes she is. tp 1 bnde agk sukar, she lacks of sense of humor. reminds me to Joel Madden. he told the UK audience that English ppl are lack of sense of humor. i guess he's fucking true. hadoi.. susah gak en.ak kne bhn like almost everyday. ok je. nape die x? emm lain org lain cara. so skg.. ak rse b'slh?.. maybe 5%. tp kureng la.. sbb.. ko bkn org MSIA, bkn org ISLAM and bkn org MELAYU. ak pn xpenah jmpe die. so it's ok la kot. tp i feel bad la.. she's my friend. ak da apology like 5times, but still like hopeless. idk back there over Macedonia.. tp ak rse cm susah. btw, ak tau die mmg sgt emosi. so uh.. wait n see la. kalo xberjaya gak, apakan daya. we knew each other like 3years ago. hey... ak syg die tau. tp xpelah. she'll be my greatest memory.

cemas

2010-01-29T17:06:00.002+08:00

adakah ak terlalu aktif? ak xmain tenis cm nadal even ak suka tgk die tarik spende terselit tatkala menservis, ak xmain bola cm team Man Utd yg ak suko sgt tuh, ak xlumba kete cm Alonso, ak xmain futsal cm kwn2. tp ak suka lompat2 dan berdansa, but i can't dance. sehingga senior ak slalu bhn ak, suro lompat bintang, lompat katak, shuffle. did u know that u will feel lighter when u jump a lot? hell yeah trust me.

cantek sket brader

2010-01-22T23:26:00.002+08:00

semakin ak cuba berhenti puff, semakin ramai plak marlboro dan winston dihulur2 kt mulut ak. blasah kang. ak xamik bai.. bak kate Anol 'cantek sket brader..'

td ayh ckp, practical ni sng nk dpt 4flat. yg penting, disiplin bgus. TETAPI.. senior2 ske ajo ak bnde2 yg ak ske. contohny: dtg lmbt lpas kol 8 balik awl b4 kol5, bersembang2, melepak kt lua dan... rahsia. mmg sonok wat aktiviti senior neh. plg best, sket2 ajk g minum. kol 10, lunch hour, kol 4, balek keje.. minum kt lua jela kejeny. mcm org tua da.. and yeah, obviously ak rse spt org tua tatkala becampur ngn mereka. pemikiran dorg, agk tua bg ku. ak lyn je.. so, adakah ak berjaya dpt 4flat sem ni? gua pn xtau la nk kate..

guess what, tgk org2 sakit ni memberi kekuatan pd kte yg kesihatan tu pnting dasat woo..

shoot be cool

benda yang sama

2010-01-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

TAHUN LEPAS
bile jmpe org bru knal je.. org akn ckp, 'awk xnmpk 21 la..'

TAHUN NI
pegi tmpt bru (klinikal), org akn ckp 'awk ni xmcm 22 la..'

BEBERAPA TAHUN LEPAS
adk drjh brapa?
awk bru lpas skolah kn?

aku da tua bangka la bai...

hari2 terakhir 2009

2009-12-31T23:20:00.004+08:00

I've spent my last few days in 2009 with so much new experiences and sad moments. Hopefully 2010 will be so much better

song of the week: I won't see you tonight

lagu ni mmg membuatkn ak bergenang mengenangkn James 'Jimmy' Owen Sullivan yg tlah mati pd Dec 28th 2009. he was 28 and found dead in his Huntington Beach home. he used to live with his wife Leanna MacFadden. so yeahh.. he's fuckin dead. dpt brite time ak kt HUKM. peh tacing abes dow.. ak pn asek lyn lgu ni and Pinkly Smooth, band The Rev zaman dolu. xcye xcye..

Dec 31st lak adik ak, Wan tlah balek ke NZ, Auckland to be exact dan tinggallah daku.. huaaa sume org nk pegi en. xkire la ape cara pn. sigh. all the best to u bro! plus kt KLIA td ade plak gotcha call dr tikus yg siot. 1 KLIA knal ak da.

practical session ak.. pehh mmg stylo. mcm2 ada. setakat 4 hari ni, 3 hari ak wat prangai. ape lg.. ngadu kt senior la. mmg sonok bile ngadu. sbb pe? sbb ak kne bsuh. bsuh gle2 pny. jrg sey ak kne bsuh slen dr parents ak.. wahhh terharu. trimas senior! semoga ak lbey berjaya dimasa hadapan. AGAIN, org xcye ak 21. what can i say?...

so.. ak msih xde umh or bilik sewa. merempat shj. xtau la ape akn jd seterusny.

nk kate R.I.P utk The Rev xleh.. becoz u know la.. but still respect for his death. i feel bad of course. he's the best.

THE REV IN MEMORY

seize the day

2009-12-22T22:42:00.003+08:00

cuti sem nk abes da.. mcm2 berlaku n i take it as life. tp 1 bnde jela ak xleh trime dlm life ni. nape msti ade pasangan hidup? sesak la. i guess u dunno what i mean tp like almost everyday i feel like BOOM! haihh.. anyway, i feel glad to see my friends yg da kawen, and even da ade psgn msing2. ak msih muda utk memikirknnye. ^____^

ak tlah meninggalkn tembakau almost 3 months. bole la.. bnyk dugaan. so ak kne cri aktiviti bru utk merelease tensen. kurg berkesan tp... bole la.

td g kdai buku ak. wahh rndu btol rkan2 yg pelbagai bangsa disana. so glad to see Abg Mansor, Dewi, Irfan. xtau la plak Baya da xkeje. tp.. ak jmpe Mutakin! die sorg Bangla yg comel :) melepak kt sane, mcm da xde tmpt len da..

at this moment, i realize how hard to tackle someone. he's killing me softly with his song la dude. pff

mulut yang cantek

2009-12-06T23:26:00.004+08:00

bapok issue. ak terasa

2009-12-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

rujukan Pancaindera 6 Dec 09, Pian Cecupak pny brite. ak xmboh amek tau psl mamat neh. ak hnya mau mengambil sepatah ayt yg membuatkn ak tersentuh.

'Jangan pandang rendah terhadap lelaki lembut'

orite.. tp xpe. kte kne tetap pndirian. bkn memandang rendah, tetapi adalah lebih baik jika ak menjauhkn diri dr mereka, drpd ak umpat dan menimbulkn rse resah bg kedua2 pihak.

for me, kalo nk jd lembut pn jd lah. i don't care. asalkn bahagia :)

Pontian ku...

2009-12-01T22:08:00.002+08:00

daerah ini terletak di Johor, karena ak tahu ade Pontian di negeri lain juga. ak telah menetap di Pontian ini sejak ak kecil, eventho i was born in JB. tadika, 2 tadika kot. then skola rendah. of course bnyk bnde tidak akn ku lupa walaupun ak tahu.. sungguh bnyk dugaan di sini. tp bile di fikir2 balek, mmg manis. (xmanis mane pn) ak neh suke mngenang kisah lame.. kui3

ak g raye haji kt umah mmber di Pontian. actually ak follow Wan je. layan.. mmber die, mmber ak gak. terharu pabila melihat mereka membesar dgn hebatnya. sbb pe? sbb sumeny lg tinggi dr ak.. huaaa. xleh wat pe la en. umah mmber yg 2nd neh, aisehman. pecah prot dibuatnya. sronok! dan sbb die la ak terngiang2 name sorg mamat neh. DOYOK. mne die dpt nme tu sey? dr seorg ckg BM kt skola rendah dlu. ckg ni stylo beb. ak xsuke BM, tp ak ske ckg ni. best sgt bile die mngajar drjah 6 Arif dolu2. smoga ckg sentiasa dirahmati Tuhan. :) mamat neh slalu tdo kt klas. tdo thap buaya kot, sbb ak pn kuat tdo gak. tp pndai la cover en. bile time BM je, die tdo ngn rakusnya sehingga ckg BM ni membaling kapur ke arahnya and memanggil DOYOK! ak pn xtau la nape.. tp name tu begitu fasih digunakn oleh ckg BM tersebut. tiap kali die msuk, akn terpancul lah DOYOK dr mulutnya. so... name mamat ni mjd DOYOK. die agk mrh kot, tp cool aja. ckg tu pn xde la marah. ktorg just gelak gle2 bile die wat cmtu. mcm2 lg la kerenah die smpaikn ak rindu sgt kt ckg tu. haihhh.. terima kasih cikgu. walaupun sy xperform sgt BM, jasamu tetap ku kenang. :)

DOYOK 2000 in memory

ha ha you're dead

2009-12-01T21:53:00.003+08:00

anyone know this song? fyi, Billie Joe Armstrong sang this. if u dunno him, he is Greenday's frontman. i love this band to death, rather than A7X and MCR. idk how to describe the title and lyrics. it gives bad impression for people, if u know what i mean but hey! i love it. no offense. i didn't refer it to anyone neither. but it's a good song coz i like to pff to people. xD

How do you get your sleep at night?
How did you get your noose so tight?
Like chewing on tinfoil, it's so much fun
Gonna be dead before your gone

Cause look how things have gotten
And I'll be happy so I won't pretend
And I'll be cheering that you're going down
And I'll be laughing, I'll be laughing

How many feelings can you steal?
Gotta be part of your appeal
I can see through you cause you're wearing thin
Like chewing on tinfoil once again

Ha Ha you're dead
And I'm so happy
In loving memory
Of your demise
When your ship is going down
I'll go out and paint the town
Ha Ha you're dead
Ha Ha you're dead
Ha Ha you're dead

Ha Ha you're dead
The joke is over
You were an asshole
And now you're gone
As your ship is going down
I'll stand by and watch you drown

Ha Ha you're dead
You're gonna be dead
Just remember what I said
Ha Ha you're dead
Ha Ha you're dead
Ha Ha you're dead

this song is from their previous album SHENANIGANS

abes da sem 3

2009-11-16T14:35:00.008+08:00

song of the day: ha ha you're dead GREEN DAY.
cpat sguh mse berlalu.. sem dpan agk kurg la chance ak utk bertemu rkan2 sejawat dr jln othman. im sure im gonna miss them a lot. i'm home and i'm already miss them.

actually ak sgt serba salah bile rkan2 tdak ke genting. ak nk sgt dude. tp.. cuaca xelok la. seriously i wanna spent some time with u guys. please forgive me..

so ape nk wat cuti ni? ak akn call hitz. fm smpai ak berjaya jwb soalan 'rock the beat'. da rm 2500 sey. gosh. kalo ade rezeki, ak btol n ak b'jaya dptkn prize tu, haa pjg otk ak b'fkir utk mse dpan.

recently ak da tgk phobia 2, The Orphan, Jennifer's body and Coraline (download sndiri). kalo nk bg ranking, it will be The Orphan no 1, Coraline no2, phobia 2 no3 and the last will be jen's body. serious shit xbes mne. but trust me, megan fox is hot. haha pervert. Coraline, cte katun. ttapi mmg agk creeps gak a. plus, my BP increasing while watching the orphan. pndai bdk pmpn tu berlakon en. smpai skit jiwa dibuatny. anyway, i love that type of person. EVIL. phobia 2, stylo gle. idup Thailand!

fluroscopic techniques

2009-11-10T13:15:00.002+08:00

i was reading this topic for the last exam on this sunday. YAY! bnyk bnde smpingan didlm pale ini. n i feel a bit pressure la. plg xleh lupe, sape tau BURIT PARI tu mkneny ape??? ni adalah makian dlm bahasa t'ganu. seseorg tlh melemparkn peribahasa ini kt ak.. so i ask Anep for the meaning. wosh! hbat gak org ganu ni en. trimas Anep.

ak kota kata2ku

2009-11-09T17:29:00.001+08:00

ngade2 la mamat sorg neh..kne bg hadiah tau

di atas permintaan ramai

2009-11-04T01:35:00.002+08:00

ak xdpt nk mengupload gmbr tersebut krn motorola phone tools di desktop ku is malfunction. duh. tbe2 je en. xpe xpe.. i will update the pic later ok!

why the eff?

2009-10-25T18:13:00.002+08:00

is it being a gf of a guy, meaning that i can't be a friend to any other guy? FU if u said so. but why the hell those guy bitches suddenly left me after he knew i had a bf? can't i be his friend anymore?.. damn. u know what i feel on that moment?.. having a relationship means i'm not a virgin anymore. so don't be my friend. duh. duh. if u know what i'm talking bout. piss off.

listen to LENKA: TROUBLE IS A FRIEND. cool song! but i wish i can make a new song entitle, FRIEND IS A TROUBLE.

kete gile

2009-10-09T22:21:00.002+08:00

seronok raseny bile kwn2 dtg ke umah. sbb mmg interest ak dr dlu: gumbira bile org dtg umh. xkesa la sape. trimas kpd kwn2. :)

mse kol 1-4 xde sorg pn yg dtg umh. pelik. so ak melepak2, mentido2 di katil. mse dkat kol 5 kot, dorg msg 'ktorg da smpai shah alam'. ak pn redy2 la nk amik dorg kt ktm pdg jawa. mse tu t'pk, 10 org, muat ke msuk avanza neh? xpela 2 round la kot. btw nk amik kal gak. ak xpass sgt pn bwk avanza tu sbnrny. 1st sbb die auto. 2nd sbb size die pelik. ak xdpt nk agk kalo nk reverse, parking sume. nk g pdg jawa tu kne rentas 5 traffic lite. nek angin gak dgn kete bnyk neh. time tu plak rmi org calling, mnta di jemput. xsmpat2 dow. siyes. sesmpainy di pdg jawa, ak cri port utk pusing. reverse2, ak langgar divider blakang. hampes. ak nmpk plak mke dorg yg mcm kepenatan n bengang sbb ak lmbt. b'tmbh srabut la ak. di jln yg sempit itu ak drive ngn laju even ak nmpk rmi org melenggang kangkong jln kt tgh2 dunia. ak mls nk hon, ak redah je. t'langgar sorg minah neh. langgar bahu je kot. tp side mirror bpk ak t'lipat. aiyo macha. mls ak nk lyn, wat bodo je. dorg nk msuk kete tu en, ak bajet kne 2 round. rupe2ny dorg nk sumbat 10 10 dlm kete. nsb le... mcm sadin. anta dorg balek dlu. time tu, da plan nk amik 5 org dlm 1 round.

pas je anta dorg, ak amik kal kt ktm smule. dgn agk b'hati2 ak ke sana. nmpk la ijat n tikus yg mencangkung dpan shell. rse b'slh. so ak cbe gak drive laju. amik kal, n next stop at shell. kua simpang shell, ak m'dpt 'butoh' dr sorg mamat memakai bju HARD ROCK CAFE BALI. 2x die bg beb. trok sgt ke ak drive dude? ak slow je kot. ntah la. moto die beso en.. ak jz angkat tgn say thanks kt die. da tu tgu mmber len di bintang. pas amik grup JLL, ak drive pulg b'smae2 mereka. sonok sey. da smpai umh, ak nk park tepi. gesel plak kete bpk ak ngn divider! kali ni ade kesan. abes la ak... jahanam kete die arini.

pape pn, thanks to my dad and his car :)

raya kali ni lain

2009-09-25T23:03:00.004+08:00

raya tahun ni ak kne involve dlm mjlis p'kahwinan kazen ak, Abg Amin. so i stayed at my granny's with my maid. mom, dad and siblings went back home 2 days earlier. nvm. pada hari raya ke3, for the 1st time ak m'drive kete Honda, yg bg ak agk besar dan mewah utk ak yg kerdil ini tp Abg Amin, Mak Lang and Pak Lang dgn yakinnye suro ak drive ke umh pengantin pompuan di Muar. so ak rse mcm hbat m'bawa 3 kazen di dlm kete itu (riak tp msih cuak. kete org beb). sesmpainya di umh pngantin, ak memohon maaf kpd Pak Usu ku krn ak tlh cocok kete Avanza die. ak dpt rsekn dlm ati Pak Usu 'nsbek la ko ni ank sdare ak, ak bg can la ko potong line ak. kalo x..' haiz trimas Pak Usu.

raya ke4 ialah knduri di umh nenek di Sg Dulang Laut, Rengit, Batu Pahat. aihh raye2 pn nk kawen. ayt ni jela yg b'men di fikiran ak. anyways. i enjoyed the day with my great crazy cousins. and ak gmbire bile Ijat dan rakannya, Azizi dtg ke umh nenekku. b'mula gosip2an yg da pnat ak nk jwb. 'ni kwn along la. kwn 1klas. ank kwn mama.' mcm2 da ak explain. susa btol.. Ijat n rakannye plak wat lwak kt bpk pngantin. ak xmo cte.. kalo nk tau, tny Ijat. mmg stylo la mamat senggarang neh. metropolis senggarang. pastu en.. kantoi la plak kt kazen2 ak psl 1 bnde ni. da 1 umah ckp 'pasni knduri along Syuhada plak'. aiyoyo.. ak da kemaluan thp siput. yela, ak da tua en. risau btol mereka. last2 ak abaikn jela. however, they just can't keep their mouth shut. im not mad of course. but it was fuckin crazy for me. yeah crazy hari raya. and i know, this thing will not end till the end.. if u know what i mean.

pape pn, raye kali ni xde wan. bile amik gmbr sme2, adk lg sorg ni xde plak. hopefully he enjoys himself there. kireny, raya kali ni absolutely len dr taon2 sblmnya.. :) yg pnting, ak gmbire tgk kazen2 ak yg suda m'beso ngn hbatnya.

another saje

2009-09-17T15:00:00.001+08:00

i did this with cause.

saje (xpenting)

2009-09-17T14:59:00.001+08:00

nothing.

selamat hari raya

2009-09-15T18:46:00.001+08:00

di sini saya nak ucapkan selamat hari raya kepada kawan2 di blog ini, dan adikku. semoga kamu semua berbahagia dan menikmati hari raya pada tahun ini. di kesempatan ini saya ingin minta maaf zahir batin. 0-0 ye kawan2 n adik. :) nanti datang la umah mak ayah saya di sha-a-nan.

adikku iwan...

2009-09-07T15:05:00.002+08:00

ak t'haru bile m'bce blog adkku. seriously ak sdey. *sob sob

anyway.. along harap wan beraya kt auckland ngn bahagianyanye mcm raya kt cni. along tau mmg len raseny.. tp just take it as a precious experience in ur life, coz alg xdpt merase keadaan cmtu.

take care bro and i will always pray and love u. may God bless u always :)

real world

2009-08-29T15:29:00.002+08:00

i just watched MTV WORLD STAGE live in Malaysia. hell yeah it's awesome! effin one. :D when i saw Tyson on the stage, singing along.. he's cool dude! i can't help it when i saw he's dancing and climbing all over the stage. and i did watched Hoobastank. ho3 Doug was sweating a lot. guess what, he looks like Deco is he? anyways, it's Malaysia buddy. u have to wear like Tyson did. ;)

as the conclusion: i would like to have them back here, in Malaysia so i can go. wee~

2009-08-27T18:19:00.003+08:00

ok so iwan nk balek. YAY!

the awesome kid: FRANK IERO

another kid: ZACKY VENGEANCE

until the end - avenged sevenfold

2009-08-27T17:40:00.003+08:00

i don't know what to say at the moment. i was thinking of deleting this account. coz im not good writer, of course. and my life isn't interesting, no more. no words to say and i will update this blog soon, if i got the chance. but hey, i will always read ur blogs.

tc
xoxo
the end

ak menggigil

2009-08-23T02:17:00.003+08:00

POST INI DIBUAT ON THE SPOT SLPS KEJADIAN

ak sgt3 tekad utk b'trus trg kt roy. mcm jantan da.. tp xpe. keputusan ini dibuat spy ak dpt idop ngn aman damai slps ni. bru la ak tau betapa susanye nk tackle org. tp ni bkn tackle, ak nk tell the truth je.

so slps beberapa kali bg offline msg, ak on die off, ak off die on, aherny kol 1pg td die buzz. ak sgt t'kjot krn ak psg max volume kt headfon. ak soal2 dlu, die bz ke.. stadi ke.. nk tdo ke.. tp die kate ok je. just esk pg kol 9 die ade trip. so ak kne cte cpat. bongek ak menggeletar. jantung ak da over penetrated, cm nk cabut pn ade gak. die ngn tabahnye menunggu ak cte, smbil2 tu ak ngarot2 utk warm up kn keadaan. gahh Tuhan jela tau cmne prasaan ak td. ak gelabah smpai meimei kt sblh pn t'bgn isk2. dgn sokongn padu dr amer, ak pn ckp. ape ak ckp? 'ROY, I MISS U SO MUCH DUDE' bahaha.. trus ak nk t'muntah. tu bru MISS. haizz..tnpa menunggu die reply, ak trus je cte mse kt KLIA. bak kate amer, cte dr A. so yeah A tu mse die KLIA.. sgt lame kisah tu, bln 4 kot. warm up.. :P ak pn xtau klaka ke cte ak, die gelak. uhh. xpe a.. xmalu sgt kot. then ayt2 die mnunjukkn die m'hayati cte ak la.. ak siap nk nanges mse ak ckp, ak da buang hadiah yg ak nk bg kt die. die ingtkn ade lg.. isk2 maaf ye roy. ak xsgup tgk hadiah tu. n ak cte, ak nanges semgu sbb ni. erm ntah la. agknye ape la die pk. ak nk survey kt guys la. apekah prasaan mereka bile ade pmpn ckp cmni..? humiliating ya know! ni bru smpai huruf K. pjg lg cte ak.. tp ak consider die nk g trip. so ak suro die tdo jela. nti ak smbung lg.. die pn ok je. yelaa nk tgu ak warm up je da 15min. cite psl tu je da kol 2.. xpe leh smbung lg.

ak ske bile die ckp 'nape shud? cterla. ak tgu. hi syud. okay syud. thanks shud..' sbb kt skul, ktorg sgt violent sesama sndiri. nvm. small matter. huh ade bnyk lg bnde t'pendam neh. nk smbung cte kt die, ak da segan. segan gle la. uhh ak xkesah cte kt org sbb, ak nk org bg respon and tips. ak sgt kolot bab2 cmni.. mlg en. nk survey la esk2. ouh nk tny mk ak skali. die msti gelakkn ak, 'ape la anak dara ak wat ni..' sorry ma, alg mmg gelabah kui3.

so harapan ak, die on9 lg nextweek la kot (sbb esk die g trip, ak nk balek kolej da). ak akn cte smpai Z. siyes mle2 ak ingtkn sng nk wat keje ni, sbb kt skul dolu2 ak da bese wat hehhh. bile da mningkat dewasa ni, susa plak rseny. kne kumpul tenaga n sorok kemaluan awl2. yakin ngn diri sndiri. huh! msti setel cpat a yg pnting.. xlrat dow nk idop cmni. hopefully sumeny b'jln lancar. di bulan Ramadan ini, ak berdoa.. supaya Allah permudahkn urusan ak ni. siyes ak xkesa jwpn and respon die. ak just nk die tau je. ckup la tu. ish3 tacing la plak.

uish xleh trime ak ckp i miss u td.. xsenonoh!xP

homies

2009-08-21T14:50:00.002+08:00

at last, im home. so ak leh a m'on9.. ding! lots of things happened when i was away. yesterday, i miss my bro.. badly. last weekend, g AACRT, a radiographer conference. kinda cool stuffs, mixing around with ppl. mse ari 1st tu en, jmpe la senior. 1st impression kakak tu, kurusnye awk ni. whoaa.. adakah die ckp btol? or just amik ati? anyway, thanks kakak.

ak g hospital pantai ayer keroh next semester.

ak da m'reject sorg senior ak.

ak da b'jaye mandi kt jeram, setelah sekian lama.

ak da bli 2 helai kemeja raya. thank u mama

bnde yg ak xb'jaya: jual dvd a7x :(

uhh lg 1, i missed the MTV World Stage. gahhhh!!! sbb g conference tu le.. aiyo macha. btw ade pros and cons. MTV ade AAR, BLG, CASABIAN. conference ade japanese, australian, taiwanese, malaysian, bangladesian, thailands, ayah ak.. napapong pongnapang, hj zain, minister of tourism, michael ong, stephen littlefair, richard price... and Mr Robert. :)

ouh tidak..

2009-08-07T11:45:00.002+08:00

ak da lame xbalek umh. sgt sdey lo :( xsngke lak tbe2 ak cm busy sem ni en. beseny.. ak escape, xnk join bnde2alah ni. uish maybe ak da matured. yay! plus, aherny ak dpt online. da lme xtgk tenet. ouh yahoo news said the abbreviations such as TTYL, LMAO, WBU are widely use. :O

i already book for a guitar lesson, but the fulus.. gosh. xckup kot duit ak skg ni. kne tgu dlu la tp excited. tp en, cm nk drum lesson je kui3

sbnrnykn... sbnrnykn... ade bnde la nk luahkn. tp en, bariah ade kt cni lak. sgan. huhu. aiyo ak b'men ngn prasaan.

i hate the feeling...

2009-08-01T14:15:00.002+08:00

...when my mind kept thinking bout Roy. idk but i just dream bout him last night. not that horny one. it was like im too desperate to see him till i was sent to hospital, mentally ill i think. no way. wtf i dream bout that?! ohh and i remember i went to his house, but he wasn't there. just his mom ( i confirmed that) accompanied me. she said, he won't be back. duh. that's effin awful.

please please do sumthin.

youtube

2009-07-30T12:46:00.002+08:00

now im back to my fav past time; addicted to youtube. at first i was searching for 21 guns by green day. hey they're too cool to play live! ouh and i rly3 wish to play guitar, like billie joe, frank iero or zacky v. well at least for the song 21 guns and seize the day. that's enough but still don't get the chance. it'll come true. one day. one day. when i was a little smaller than now, im too obsessed to play a drum. well of course i like to see tre cool and the rev. they're awesome and i wanna be like them once. but later on, i thought drum would be too expensive compare to guitar aight. plus it took space while guitar doesn't. so i change my mind, but still got the interest. so.. yeah 21 guns such a nice song. uhh and. my mind was talking, why don't u view second heartbeat by A7X? so i was like yeah.. A7X live cool either. better check it out. lol yeps i like all the vids. plus this guy on this link, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1h_y4-sNOI was effin cool! gosh gosh.. he made me back to my previous interest, playing drums. then opps, i type 'MAN UTD IN MALAYSIA' kuang3 nafsu nafsu... youtube is a kind of drug i guess lol

driving day

2009-07-30T11:20:00.002+08:00

smlm join naz n bella g survey tmpt orentasi. eventho im not the AJK i rly wanna go with them, sbb leh g jejln. :) mle2 g a bkt cerakah A.K.A bkt cahay seri alam. best tu, ok la. jln bkn men jauh, sbb bella xmo nek beskal. adoyai. i enjoy the journey eventho the wheather was damn hot. g umh 4 musin tu en, naz hoped that it'll be winter but NAAH.. summer gak. bek dok kt lua. btw the summer is not as hot as msia. da tu nk balik ke pngkal, kne la jln lg. bpe km ntah, yg pnting jauh la.. kireny area tu bella n naz xmo, sbb xde tmpt luas. wateve.. otw balek, nmpk lak signboard 'tapak perkhemahan' hohoho nape la xnmpk awl2. so ak n naz decide to take a bike. bella xmo.. erk cmne tu. ktorg ajo gak bella nek beskal. tp xb'jye. kui3. so ak n naz jela g tmpt tu. ak g tmpt tu 2x, jauh, b'bukit2 n panas. sesmpainy ak di tmpt bella tgu kami, ak nek pitam. nk tumbang daa.. kuang3. ak asek ckp '100plus 100plus' tu je la yg mmpu. dorg rsau sbb ak kne drive lg pasni.. haa tau tkot. lame2 tu ok la. g plak hulu langat.

kt hulu langat, ya ampun jln cm nk g mersing, or pahang etc. i mean, hutan n xmaju lgsg. thriller a sng kate. cri2 tmpt smpai rseny cm kalo lalu hiway, da smpai melaka da.. frankly best. ak bwk je nk laju. shido, bella, mirae tau la cmne ak drive. mmanjang nk laju pastu break. i did it once again, naz kt blakang cm nk t'tonggeng kot. sbb ade bumper kt dpan. mule2 mmg clear a jln turn bukit. da la xde kete. pelg, gear 5 di jln kmpung. tbe2 ade bump yg xde color dpan ak. msti la break. kalo x break,, i wonder what happen. bakkate bella, break b'bunyi. tu jela die asek ulg smpai balek. ak smpai umh mlm smlm pn pening sbb bnyk tawe. t'hibur sgt kot. aihh susa gak bnyk tawe. yg pnting, da dpt tmpt. tgu dani jela. erm.. i was thinking kalo nek bus dr alamanda smpai tmpt tu, 2 jam kot. hohh xlupe gak nk say thanks to bella n naz sbb sponsor bnyk bnde. mlm tu mkn sate kajang, ushar doc hamzah time muda. lol. hoh ak jrg a jln smpai cmni skali. beseny straight way umah nenek ke, macik ke tp ni..priceless experience beb. thnks gak kt naz sbb abeskn sate ak..isk3