famous last words.

Just called him and I gave my last words to him. I am so sad. so very very sad. but if that makes you and everybody feel better, then I force to do it.

You don't know me and I don't know you.

I just can't erase those memories with you. Nevermind, who cares.

Untitled.

I cry everyday for 3 weeks, and now I've been crying so hard again. It is tiring, for God's sake. What the fuck just happened? This is so not me. Yet there's no turning back. I've tried, man. I've been trying so fucking hard. and seriously you ruined again? Bullshit.

Whatever dude. I know you're reading this. Either he or she, I don't care. Keep on reading on how fucked up my life is. Hey if you wanna know more, do check my twitter. I tweet a lot y'know. Proudly to say thank you for making my life in such a way.

I never hate you. I just hate for what happened. and right now, I'm fuckin giving up.

Don't worry, be happy.

Untunglaaaa

Aku ada buat puisi, ilham lepas tekanan selama sehari semalam. bagus gak bg pressure kt gua. gua jd pelapis A Samad Said pasni.

Untunglaa kau bro.. semua org percaya cakap kau

Untunglaa kau bro.. semua bekap kau

Untunglaa kau bro.. hidup aman bahagia

Untunglaa kau bro.. dah merasa ada 2 girlfriends in a time. kakakaka

Untunglaa kau bro.. berjaya buat org merana sampai mati

Untunglaa kau bro.. muka hensem

Untunglaa kau bro.. buat salah besar mana pn, org kesah kt kau lg

Untunglaa kau bro.. kau tipu pun org tak marah

Untunglaa kau

p/s: takde kena mengena ngn sesiapa yg hidup atau mati. takyah nak butthurt. taik kucing.

For the second time my life has ruined

I realised how I got no rights to have feelings, to disappoint, to be happy, to have my social life where all of these make this one man's life miserable. So I guess I'm not gonna talk how I feel anymore cause I am human with no feelings or maybe, I ain't a human.

Seriously damn regret for having this FB account. Here it goes, this account is gonna be a place where I only get information bout my course and events. so if you people out there who give a fuck bout me for having this account, I'm begging you people for not hating me. I need those information so much. please you honorable, noble and glorious people. I am just a dumbass who need a life.

Anyway, hates me if you that makes you feel better.

I am clueless.

A Thousand Years.

I am totally regret for what happened these days. You might say I am a total dumbass for keeping that faith. It's not that I put high hope on that person anymore. It's just my soul that wanna keep holding on. It happens when you let go ALL your love towards one person. ALL dude.

I am trying to be Dont-Give-A-Fuck girl that I used to be but sometimes it just doesn't work out that way. such a pathetic bitch.

Especially when I listen to A 1k Years by Christina Perri. You see, she is a tattooed lady which my first impression was "wow she's fierce" yet her song, I mean this song is kinda touched my feelings. argh wadefakk. Anyway yes it feels like "you should give a chance for yourself and that person. the future's not ours to see". Sweet isn't it? blablabla...

Whatever. I'm just saying how ruined my life is. It's been 3 weeks man. I don't see the bright lights anymore. I live like there's no tomorrow, no future. Hopeless. However! I still believe having faith in God is very crucial which give me some strength to keep on living, How I Met Your Mother series make my day, hanging out with friends help me to forget things and going to concerts or gigs burst out my burden. TEEHEE

Don't feel like writing on my blog anymore cause I prefer this font LOL

Then all of a sudden aku jijik dgn jiwa bunga2 aku. harap maklong.

hai laki kacak

I fall in love with you sebab you lah laki paling hemsem dlm dunia. sebab tula I xmau lepaskan you tau x? you kaya raya, bijak bestari, macho gentleman, charming. you pny belalai pun sedap dan tuf. I'd do anything for you la sayang!

alaa you left me anyway. i xpuas lg nk romen ngn you.. i stim gila bila you peluk i taw. nape you tinggalkan i? i kantoikan nk? i gtau org sana kisah sebenar. ha i pegang bomb you neh. kalau i baling kt kampung you, mmg padanla muka you. mau?

kalau ngkorang caye ayat2 diatas ni keluar dr mulut aku, you know nothing bout me.

but the truth is, I'm holding that weapon. rasa mcm hebat giteww.

you owe me something, asshole. you hurt my feelings and you don't care? fine. I'm gonna shoot you right on your dick anytime I want. keep on lying to them if that makes you feel better. but don't underestimate me, you filthy liar.

pagi yg hujan

yep today I woke up early and it was raining. and it is still raining. best best.

so my new year started with some awesome and awful events. the night before new year was alright yet the days after that was a total bummed. I am still bumming right now (bumming, betul ke?). is trying to amuse myself in so many ways.

you know I used to watch sports a lot, which I think they're my drugs and my medicines. so I started to stick back to my old-loyal-friendly boyfriends, ESPN and ASSP. urgh jadah apa bau cm cb je lori sampah neh.

I wish not to talk bout how disappointed I am in this blog since my twitter TL is full of my emotions and touchy mouchy feelings. you might annoyed with those shits I tweeted. damn I am so sorry but I just don't give a fuck. kehkeh.

talking bout fuck, did you people really know what does that word mean? when to use it? how to use it? well you better open up your eyes and mind because it doesn't only mean put a guy's cock in a girl's vagina mmkay. screw you if you said so, butthead.

guess what, I'm done blue printing my future bedroom. gahh it was great and I am satisfied! next kena plan mana nak cari fulus2 itu, then proceed to living room.

disamping itu, aku rasa seperti semakin tua. mmg makin tua pun. asek nak pegi vacay je. so I was thinking of going to Perak. ada gua! pastu nk pergi obersi plak. last time ada hati la gak nak try tengok Sabah Sarawak tp skg cm takde hati je. heh bukan takde. nanti la.. bila ada jemputan kawen dr Kabong, I'll be there la. kot.

gua nk pergi obersi sambil dgr lagu Coldplay, Adele dan Christina Perri. tu tandanya.. ha jawab ler. gua sendiri jijik dgn jawapan itu.

did you know there's few disadvantage if you wake up early and got nothing to do? I have five dude. firstly of course you just wasting your time with doing nothing. secondly you started to get hungry and you eat. later on you'll get fat because you know la, breakfast kt Malaysia ni lemak2 belaka. right? thirdly, you'll waste money sebab kena beli sarapan tuh. fourthly, pagi ni la org pegi kerja, cuaca pn sejuk2 lagi. rugi bangun awal. takde org pn nk ajak lepak. so you might end up with termenung and social network yg buang masa neh. last but not least, membazir amalan syaitan. fikir2kan lah.

so that's it. nak sambung tidur. selamat beramal.

p/s: I can't get over you till today. my mistake and it was a bad decision. I wish I could turn back time so that those mistakes won't happen or, I wish we haven't met.